It Could Be More

Chapter 4

I grab my pajamas and walk up to my room "Nick come on! Choose a movie!" I yell at him through the door, as he was in the bathroom. I figured he'd be in there for another minute or two so I started to strip. I was left in my bra and underwear when I heard him snicker. I turn around and look at him looking at me and smiling. "You're beautiful." He said and I threw my pillow at him. I wasn't that great at taking compliments anyways. I sigh and pull over my shirt on my body. I grabbed for my shorts and was about to put them on when I was stopped. I turn and look at Nick who gently hugs me, "I think you should just sleep like this, your body is just absolutely beautiful and I promise I don't mean that in a sexual way." He pushes the hair out of my face and he holds my face in his hand. I blush and smile at him. My blush disappears and I push him away, not taking the chance of getting close to anyone again. "Pick a movie." I say and look at him. He looks at me with a sad smile "Alright." He turns and goes towards my shelf with a bunch of movies and books on them. He grabs a movie off the shelf and puts it in. "I'll be right back." I set down the shorts I was holding and I run downstairs. I open the cabinet and grab a bag of chips. I head for the refrigerator and get a couple drinks out. I run back upstairs and the lights are already shut off, except for the light from the tv. I walk in setting the chips and drinks down and I sit beside him, as he was already cuddled into the bed and under the blankets. I feel his hand move under the blanket and he grabs my hand. I squeeze his hand gently and smile. I press the play button and the movie begins. I opened my drink and began to chug it down. Nicholas was digging in the bag of chips and he'd put a chip up to my mouth once in a while for me to eat. After the movie ended we were both already half asleep. "Goodnight Maddie.." I hear a sleepy Nick say before I drift off.

I wake up at like 10:30 and I look around my room. Nicholas is still sleeping adorably beside me and he has hogged all the blankets and covers. I roll my eyes and then get up to go to the bathroom. I walk into the bathroom and I look in the mirror. "I look horrible." I say to myself quietly and then I put my hair up into a ponytail. I walk back into my room and I lay back down. I look up at the ceiling thinking. "I used to wake up with Scott like this.." I thought to myself and then I look over at Nick. Nick and Scott were basically opposites. Nick was sweet and nice. Scott was just different. He got into trouble with the cops a lot and I loved being with a dangerous guy I guess you could say. Maybe I loved it because when it was just me and him, he was sweet and caring. We had our own inside jokes and we could be completely weird together and not care. With Nick I feel happy and I truly care about him, but I'm not going to even try with him. Scott ended up horribly. So will he. I sigh and then I hear him moving. I look over at him and his eyes flutter open and he smiles, "Been awake long?" He asks and I shake my head "10-15 minutes maybe." I shrug and he pulls me closer to him. "I have to work today at 12-6" He says and looks at me sadly. I shrug "That's fine, we can hang out after you get off." I give him a sweet smile. "I should get ready." He gets up and goes to take a shower. He gets out just a little bit later and he's in his work uniform "See you later Maddie." He says and I hear him go downstairs. From inside I hear his car drive off and get up going to the kitchen. I grab a glass and get some water from the sink. I take a drink and I hear the doorbell. I sigh and I walk to the door.

I open the door and see Scott. "I saw the dumbass drive off, you busy?" He asks and I shake my head, regretting it immediately. "Great," he says and walks in. I slowly close the door and he pushes me up against the door, his face within 5 inches of mine. I can smell his scent and I can't help, but think of how good he smells. His scent used to calm me and make me happy. I sigh..it still does. He leans forward more and I feel his lips against mine. My instinct tells me to push him away, but I missed him. I missed his touch. I missed the Scott I fell in love with and I had always hoped he would come back. My arm wraps around his neck and I kiss him back. His arms hold my waist and he pulls away looking at me, smiling. I look into his eyes and all I can see is the lies he's told me. I push him off, he doesn't love me and he never will. I needed to get that through my head. Being attached is possibly the worst feeling ever, especially with the wrong guy. I tried being his friend, I really did, but it always ended up with me being hurt because he obviously can't be single for more than a week at a time. He picks me up into his arms and he carries me up to my room, like he used to. He lays my down onto my bed and he crawls on top of me. I feel him planting small kisses on my neck and I want to push away, but I can't. My legs wrap around his and he starts to lower his kisses. My instinct kicks in and I sit up. "Uhm..want to watch a movie or something?" He looks at me and smirks. "Don't forget I know how to easily turn you on, but sure." I stand up and turn on the DVD player, not caring that the same movie I was watching last night with Nick was still in there. I sit down and wait for the menu to pop up and when it does I hit play. He lays down and he pulls me back to lay on his chest. I breath in his scent and I give a small smile. His scent was intoxicating and it had always made me tired for some reason. I close my eyes and I easily fell asleep.

"Why the fuck are you here?!" I slowly begin waking up and I see an angry Nick standing in the doorway yelling at Scott. I push myself off of him and I see Scott stand up. "How about I ask why you're here?!" Scott pushes Nick back and I could see the anger growing in both of them. Nick looks over at with with a look of sadness and disbelief. He knew I loved Scott and he knew everything about the situation, but he hated seeing that I still couldn't get Scott out of my life. I stand up and I grab Scott by the arm. "We'll have to talk about this later." I say and open the front door. He begins to walk out and looks back at me. "Maddie, you still love me, I know you do, and I WILL get you back to being mine." I shut the down and I drop down on my knees "Why can't I leave him alone? Why can't he just leave me alone so I can try to be happy?" I feel tears falling down my face and I feel Nicks arms wrap around my waist and pick me up. "Maddie come on..you know he's not good for you, you need to stay away from him." He says to me and I just look up into his eyes. He smiled sweetly, "You know I'm right."