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Amir
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About three years ago i told Killa that I was feeling him, that was a big step for me. Well weeks went past of me avoiding him, whenever I went to see Jessica and her mother, I'd make sure Killa was never home. Soon after, we finally came into contact because Jessica set it up, she lied and said that he wasn't going to be home but as soon as I walked through the door he was standing right there.
I feel like he played with my emotions, he knew that I would do anything for him, and he knew that I was so naive and young. He made me believe that we were going to be together, he made me believe that there was actually a chance for us. But then, I found out that he had a baby on the way, I confronted him about it when he was out with his boys and he played the shit out of me. He played with my whole life, he told me that I don't need to be asking him questions like we together but that night before I lost my virginity to him. To say I was hurt would be an under statement, because I was more than hurt.
Months later I found out that I was pregnant, when I found out Jessica was right there with me the whole time. I told her to not tell killa until I was ready but she said she slipped up and just told him on a accident. I aint wanna talk to her for awhile but that's my best friend and I wouldn't blame her for telling him because that's her brother and that's the right thing to do. When killa and I finally met up with each other it was so awkward between us two, like, I stood there in front of him dead silent. You could have heard crickets until he finally spoke up saying four words that I wouldn't have ever thought he would have said, "Get rid of it". He spoke to me so coldly and walked away like I aint mean shit to him.
I told Jessica what happened she felt bad because she told him without my permission and because he was her brother and he made me feel pain. killa threatened me to get the abortion and, basically he said that if I aint get it then he will kill me, so then neither me or the baby would be alive. I was so hurt because I really did like him and I never would have thought that it'll be him to day those things to me.
Now that I've grown into a full figured young lady he want to come back, and he say that he's sorry. As much as I want to forgive him it's like something deep down inside of me is telling me not. Maybe it's because I saw how my mother was treated by men, I always told myself that -that wasn't gonna happen to me.
