"Its Complicated"

Wins and Losses

[Listen to a sad playlist for this chapter.]
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( Izzy's P.O.V. )

I wake up due to my alarm, in shock. At first I was confused to why I was in some random room and not in my home. But then my common sense kicked in and I get out of bed.

I look at my still messy room and grab the first items I saw. A casual dark grey pencil skirt, and a white crop hoodie. I shrug my shoulders and put it on. I slip on some white sneakers and grab my bag.

Tying my hair in a ponytail and I jog down the stairs, and I am greeted by a smell. Not just any smell, the smell of breakfast tacos. I rush to the kitchen to see a whole plate of them. I grab a few and some orange juice.

"Ah Miha, if you're this hungry, why didn't you say so. I would've killed a cow."

"Ha-ha mom, I'm just hungry, didn't eat much last night."

"Adiós Issabella, mi hija hermosa"

I smile at her and walk out the door. I shove the tacos down my throat and drive to school. I felt real happy today. Who knows maybe my lucky streak will work out.
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"So Miss. Gondolez, tell me the answer of this equation."

I look up from my sketchbook and look at the trifling problem on the board. I glance at my teacher and then back at the board. Honestly I don't know this shit, it's not even important. God why did I choose to be in Trig. this year.

"Ahem! Miss Gondolez have you figured out the answer?"

"Um the answer has to be 7.5x. Damn she's annoying."

I cover my mouth as the class chuckles at my mistake. My teacher glares at me before clearing her throat signaling the class to shut up.

"Well Miss. Gondolez, the answer is 23 to the second power. And the feeling is mutual."

The class snickers at me once again, and I bury my head in my textbook. Oh god kill me.

The rest of class was fine, and as soon as the bell rang, I grab my stuff tryiing to slip out of the class before she calls me. But I slow down when Cameron purposely knocks my water bottle over. I pick it up but it was too late.

"Miss Gondolez, I believe I asked to see you."

I mumble a few words, and turn around to her desk. I hover over her desk, waiting for the yelling and detention to be slapped in my face.

"Miss Gondolez, for the last week your grades have been falling unexpectedly. Are you okay?"

I look at her surprised and try and rack up an excuse other than my love life. I silently scream for joy when I realize I had an excuse to use.

"Well I have been moving houses and it's been very exhausting. I'm sorry about not giving my homework in time and the comment I made today."

She stares at me more before chuckling and trashing my homework and quiz grades in the trash. I watch in awe as I realized what that meant.

"Miss. Gondolez, you don't have to tell me the real reason. But I can tell how stressed it's been for you. So as an act of good faith I trashed those bad scores. But promise me you'll work hard for the test okay."

"Yes ma'am I promise."

I walk out the class and rush to my locker. I grab my lunch heading to the cafeteria.

"Izzy..."

I look around to see if someone called me. I saw nothing except a few kids chatting on the opposite side of the hall. I shrug my shoulders, presuming I misheard my name.

"Izzy..."

I roll my eyes, and continuing to walk towards the cafeteria. I walk faster when I feel someone's presence. Chills go down my spine as I hurry to the cafeteria.

"Izzy...listen to me."

I stop and my breath shakes. Did I hear that voice correctly? I close my eyes and turn around refusing to open them. The footsteps come closer and I feel a hand rest in my cheek. A tear rolls down my face knowing that warm embrace anywhere.

"A-august?"

I open my eyes to see his figure. He wipes away my tears and looks at me with a warm smile. I cup his cheek and feel his soft skin. I look at his clothes, and to my surprise it was all white.

"Isabella, I want you to know, I miss you...."

"A-august who hurt you? Who m-murdered you?"

He shakes his head no, and strokes my hair gently. I cry gently and he pulls me in a hug and he coos me to calm down.

"Ssh, babe. It's okay, I'm fine okay. I promise I am happy. And I want you to be happy too."

"Auggie, I can't, I want you. I miss you."

He pulls back from me and flicks my cheek lightly. I smile at him and he smiles back with me. He gently kisses my forehead and strokes my hair once again.

"You stupid Dino, so caring you forget about your needs."

He chuckles as I laugh along with him.

"See that's what you should do. Everytime you think of me, I want you to laugh instead. Promise me?"

"I promise."

He pulls me in for another head and kisses my forehead again. I close my eyes, and smile as his warm comfort is around my heart. Then I open my eyes to thank him, but he was gone.

I look around and the hall was empty. The bell rang as I ran back to my locker grabbing my stuff and eating my food along the way.

What was that...
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I take a yawn as I close my Trig. textbook and take out my History book. I look to my left to see August sitting in my chair with a goofy smile/

"Hey Izzy."

"Jesus Auggie you scared me."

He laughs at my reaction and walks to my bed. I smile and he smiles in return. I feel calm, I feel safe with him.

"Izzy I can't stay for long, but I want you to do me a favor okay."

Without hesitation, I nod. I'd do anything for him, I love him. I could never say no. He smiles and cups my cheek. His expression quickly changes and he gets serious.

"I want you to be happy Izzy. I am dead, I can't cuddle you or give you the attention you deserve."

I quickly shake my head no, and pull him in for a hug.

"Auggie, I'm sorry. We just kissed that's all."

"It's fine, I'm not mad."

"But I betrayed you."

"Izzy are you okay?"

"No, I'm not, I haven't been okay in a while."

"Wanna talk about it."

And after he said that, I told him everything. From the moment he died til now. He just listened, and even placed my head on his lap. After I told him everything I felt a spell of drowsiness over me. I gave into it and fell asleep.

But I knew that he left me. He moved on, and I promised to him I would try. Anything for August, my love.
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EDIT DONE. Sksksksks i am so proud.
Mia👅