"Its Complicated"

Date Again!!

Warning

This chapter may mention:
Depression, self harm, loneliness, and other sensitive stuff. If you are sensitive to this topic or easily triggered, SKIP THIS CHAPTER. I will inform what happened next chapter.

Good. You may continue, but YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!!!

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( Izzy's P.O.V. )

I drop my bag on the floor, and grab a pillow. I shove my head into it and scream. I was fucking pissed. I said yes to him.

I FUCKING SAID SAID YES TO HIM.

It wasn't fair though, he made grand gesture in lunch. He skipped his class to come to me, gave me a hug and then freaking gave me a mini basket of things I like. If I said no, what would everyone think?

I roll my eyes, knowing that's false. I've rejected him twice, both in public. So why did I say yes. I probably said it out of pity. That's false too, I don't pity him.

Then it has to be, my developing feelings I buried a month ago. And if they are rising to the surface then, I'm fucking screwed.
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I close my laptop, and yawn. I finally finished my last homework assignment, and I'm tired as hell. Adjusting my messy bun, I look at the dark sky outside a laugh.

Times like these, August would have made it perfect. Hell, I bet I would've finished my essay for Science in a breeze, with him next to me. Telling me jokes, and motivating my to finish.

I chuckle at what he'd say, but during my chuckle, I started to cry. I don't know why, but I was crying. I wipe the tears from my face, sick of what happens. I needed closure, he is gonna make me insane.

But I don't want closure..I just want him back.

So then why the hell, am I going on a date with Jacob? I'm clearly hurt over August, so why move on when I'm sure if I wanna date just yet.

I get out of bed, and grab some fluffy sock and slippers. I put them on and walk downstairs to the backyard. I open the window door, and slide outside to the cool, dark night. I lay on my back and look at the sky.

It was so peaceful, so quiet. I soon forgot about August, Asher and Jacob, and thought about the stars. In a way, I was happy. It was four in the morning and I was happy, not sad or tired, just happy.
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I woke up with a warm feeling on my cheek. I open my eyes, blocking the sun with my palm. I was outside, which meant I feel asleep out here.

I woke up and grunted in pain, I had a knot in my neck.
Okay, I just need a outfit.. Something.

I rummage through my closet,and find some old clothes. I look at them, and scoff. I really wore this. I mean come on, I may have bad fashion sense, but this, this is just mean.

*sigh*

I tried it on, and It was perfect. Absolutely perfecto

If "perfect" means taking 35 minutes to squeeze in the overalls, then yes, it was perfect.

I take a picture, and smile. Perfect. *sike* (outfit on top ^)

Put my hair in a ponytail,and left a few strands of hair in the front. I smile, and slip on my shoes. I put on my snapback, and grabbed my bag.

Date here we come...yay 😒

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Heyo, I know this is a short chapter.

But this is a filler chapter. Next chapter will be longer, and more dramatic.... And should I do a Q&A??? Probably, I hope I can...

Byeeeeeee

Mia👑
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