Truly Me Amelia Zabini

Are you crazy?

Snape materialized next to me, "Are you crazy?" Looking him in the eyes, it seemed as though he was stuck between pissed and concerned.

Letting out a crazed laugh answering his question in an instant. "Maybe so. I have yet to find a way to end all this torment, but i mean it's not like there is much more left for me to lose, now is there?"

Finding out that your family of five was now a family of two, was a hard thing to cope with. Especially when one of those three that are gone, happened to be your other half, your partner in crime, your everything in a pretty, moving package. You lost it all because you asked someone you thought you could trust for help, when you could have found your missing half on your own. Everything was gone and there was nothing I could do about it, but kill the ones who did this, and crush the other that happened to be on that side. Our little brother grew up without his older sisters to guide and protect him. I may have missed out on this much, but now that i'm back I plan to protect him to the ends of this damned Earth. Honestly maybe I am going crazy, the things that will happen and be on my shoulders, but its all for love. The love I had and still hold like a torch for my broken family. 

"You give up quite easily then, Miss Zabini." Snape snapped me out of my thoughts as he walked beside me, shaking his head in a disapproving way. Stopping outside the gates to Malfoy Manor, turning to him I look him in the eyes. Those onyx, soul searching eyes. They always seemed to be able to see right through you, lets see how well he actually does? Lets see how he shows emotion, if he has any?

"Do you really want to talk about giving up?" He stopped too, staring at me with curiosity as he nodded. "Your the one who jumped sides of the war, because poor, poor Lily was going to die. The side that took me from my family, took my life, my other half, my future. They turned me into their new play toy, something that let them know when it hurt or if there were crazy side effects. Can't get that out of a doll, can you? They are killing Pureblood's with any kind of power their scared of, or that they can't possess. They told me when Blaise was born, told me when and how they killed my sister, I saw my parents die as Hermione. The last thing they said to me before they died was, "Your nothing but filth!" And they were pretty damn right, knowing who I really was or not, it was a statement of truth they didn't know yet and never will know. Yet I never gave up, looked for a way out everyday, even tried to escape multiple times using bursts of my powers when they would come in. I know you cover your emotions, because you think its weak. Maybe to you its weakness, but maybe to me its survival, safety, hiding in the hidden, my own little world, a zone of purity, a rebellion in the end. You can't even begin to think you know me, and you want to tell me I give up easy? I wouldn't be doing this right now if I had given up. So yes, I am crazy, just not Bellatrix crazy."

He stared at me in shock. "I was a child, sweet, innocent, pure, and loved my family more then anything. Now I am filthy, feel like the dirt beneath your shoes. They took everything from me, she helped take it all. Now I am going to avenge my family, and try to fix..." Trailing off there before I could really let to much out, not wanting him to have my emotional distress to through in my face later. Hiding my heart again, I looked to him again. "Pick whatever side you want, but know this. If you get in my way, you won't have to wait too long to see your traitor, lying, and unforgiving Lily fucking Potter.

He seemed thoroughly shocked for a moment, before he started firing right back at me. "How dare you say such things about her? You know nothing of her!" He was mad and honestly I think thats what I was going for, hit a nerve did I?

"Oh, but I do." Tapping a finger to my temple to say is if it were all locked away up there. "Tell me, how many times do you have to apologize to a friend for one mistake, before they forgive you?"

"What I did was unforgivable, and none of your concern."

"Look at you," pointing at him with a disapproving look. "Your still defending someone who never cared about you. If she did, she would have forgiven you for your mistake. If you can't see she never cared for you, then your even more daft then I had thought. She used you and you became obsessed. What did she do to deserve your undivided devotion for everything Lily? She didn't seem like the fruity type to me." I was disappointed in him to say the least, could he really not figure this all out, even after all this time?