My Life is Far from Free

Chapter 2

This was it. I was going to be living with my father and will no longer be with mom. Everyone said she was better off now but I couldn't help think that wasn't the case. I looked out the backseat window to my fathers Subaru. Everything was moving so fast just like my life. Just the other day my mother was with me telling me she loved me and will always be there and now she is gone. The trees looked like a green blur and the sky was cloudy. It was grey and full of clouds.

"I think we are going to have a storm soon. What do you think? Do you think it will be just rain or lightening?" My father tried breaking the silence. I liked the silence it was the only thing that helped me think. The silence helped me deal with the reality of never seeing my mother. I looked at him and saw his eyes staring back in the rear-view mirror. He looked away to focus on the road. I didn't answer him, I wish he wouldn't speak anymore, i wanted the silence to be my only friend. I hoped he got the message. Looking back out the window i thought of my mom.

I remember first time she took me to Disney World. I was about six and I was so excited. My father wasn't there for some reason that I don't remember. "You excited?" My mother asked with a grin so huge. She was almost as excited as me! She knew my answer and I yelled. "Thank you! Thank you mommy! I love you! I am super excited!" mom laughed at my enthusiasm and I couldn't help but smile even more. I looked out the window of her car and the green blur followed us everywhere. It wasn't as sunny as I had hoped but it was a nice day out. It was cloudy but hot out just like i always loved it to be. Soon we reached a bridge and my mom pointed to the bright blue ocean still focusing on the road. "Oh! Mommy it's so pretty! Can we go swimming there?" I stared into the blue water and looked more carefully. I saw big boats gliding across the water. The water looked so calm and so perfect. My mother laughed "No, we can't but we can go somewhere like it after. Maybe tomarrow? How would you like that?" I smiled wider and bigger as an answer and mom just nodded. We had an amazing day at Disney World and it was always one of my favorite memories. While we were there my mother said that we got to see Beauty and the Beast. They were going to come and perform the magical story just for me. We waited for them for fifteen minutes and just as they were about to perform rain started pouring everywhere and light flashed in so many different places, near and far. Someone announced the performance was going to be canceled and my smile turned into a frown. "Dont worry, baby." my mother hugged me, ignoring the rain. " we will go see them perform another time.. It is just a show." she kissed my cheek and we ran out of the park and to the car. It was so perfect that day. Just my mom and I, i would give anything to have that again. She was always there for me and made me smile all the time. I miss her so much.

For the rest of the ride no one talked. Not a sound was made, I liked it. We arrived at my fathers house. Well, i should say our house now. It looked like an ordinary house on an ordinary street. Kids were playing basketball , hopscotch, and jump rope, they all wore big smiles. I didn't see one kid playing with their parents, not one! They had no clue what they were missing. "Come on, lets get in the house" Those were the only words i heard Jeffrey say throughout the whole ride. He didn't seem too happy to be my guard and who would blame him? I wouldn't want to take care of a teenage girl! He searched like a hawk for anything suspicious on the street and around the house. The only thing that was suspicous was the old man crawling in the grass but he quickly got up when he found some glasses.

We walked inside and right away my father started to make two rooms, one for me and the other for Jeffrey. Jeffrey just smiled and thanked him and hid in his room. If only he would stay there when i go to school. My fathers house was closer to a different school so I have to go there instead of my old one. I was told that my friends and i had the same block off so I can go see them everyday. That was the only upside to changing schools.

About an hour later we were all sitting at the table. I just looked down at the salad and moved my fork across the plate making it look like some was eaten. 

My father was trying so hard to make everything better but he just couldn't do it! He was smiling all the time trying to act like we were one big happy family. We arent. We are not even a family! He left me and i thought family never left eachother! Jeffrey doesnt even want to be here and neither do i. I can't trust anyone! My mother was taken away from me, the only person in my life that mattered. My heart is filling up with so much hate and is turning black. I need to get revenge. What ever it takes, ill get my revenge.