RANTS

Oregon

I have a half happy thing to rant about tattoo

That is that this summer I'm GOING TO OREGOOOOOOON YAYYYYY

My dad lives in Oregon with my little brothers and my (step but moght as well be my real) sister and I am so happy that me and my dad got my mom to agree to let me go up to stay with them for a while without her! But there are a couple of thingsthat I'm not so happy about

First of all she decided that I'll have to wait til the VERY end of summer to go and I can only go for a friggin week. So basically I get to go to a place I've been to only as a baby and small child for a week and then pretty much immediately go back to school. Which that sucks really bad.

And then there's the fact that I have terrible social anxiety and just anxiety in general. So even though I talk to my dad and siblings on the phone alot, I will barely even be able to speak to them at first. It sounds rediculous but it's happened alot of times. Even when I've hung out with someone at school alot, or whatever, most of the time I am so quiet and can hardly bring myself to speak because I just don't know what to say and/or am afraid that I'll say something wrong and make everything awkward. Not to mention my mom will be driving me not even halfway there, meet my dad and siblings in Idaho and then I'll drive the rest of the way there with them... and being in cars when it's hot makes me sick. Plus I haven't been on a super long drive like that since... well at least not for many years

But other than that I'm super excited to go! It's going to be super fun and at least my sister will be there, which even with my social anxiet, I think I'll be okay with her because we have a TON in common and she reminds me of my best friend. She also has already planned the first few things for me to do when we get there, which is go to a place called abby's for pizza, get something call a phosphate from a soda/popcorn place and then something else I can't remember lol