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JIN ;

i'm such a mess. even my dongsaeng is mad at me. stupid useless bastard.

i pulled out my phone from my trouser's pocket as i felt a vibrate. someone is calling and that someone is yoongi.

i hesitated to pick up the call but i think he just worried about me so i picked it up.

" yah ! i've been calling for 20 times for fuck sake ! where are you going ?! you left your coat here. you might caught a cold out there ! "

there there. min yoongi always be like that.

" i'm okay. don't worry. i will go home after i clear my mind. " lie. i might just got drunk at the random stall and come back home sober at 12 or 1 a.m.

" you better be home. we not going to sleep until you arrive. "

" yeah yeah. " i hanged up.

i hugged myself as the wind blown quiet hard and my body was shivered because of that.

i sniffed and sneezed for god knows how many times.

i found myself make a step to a bar around there. honestly, i don't know where i was.

" ahjumma.. 2 bottle of soju please. " i said and sit at one of the table.

it's great to be unpopular sometimes, because you don't need to fully cover yourself and you can go around without people recognized you.

i glared at the spot where BTS have a dinner. we all drink soju but only jimin, taehyung and jungkook drink mineral water. we laughed like idiots and talked about how excited we are when we finally makes our dream comes true.

a debut group.

" i want to become famous and makes a lot of money. i can buy our parents a house and cars and give them a lot of money. we can travel around the world. " i said while smiling like a crazy person.

" yeah. i want us to be together for 10 years forward. or maybe 20 or 30 ? hahahhahahah " the maknae line just shook their head when they see their hyung were completely drunk.

" yoongi hyung, how about you? " yoongi chuckled and think seriously.

" for me, i want to make our songs to be hear to the world and we perform at  a huge stadium and our fans chanted for us. "

" yeahhhhh ~~ " they cheered for yoongi's dream.

that's actually every idol's dreams. to be acknowledged to the rest of the world.

' and i think i can't be a part of it anymore. '

i sighed and smiled painfully. it's not like we had a big fight and we still can fix it. but the way jimin told me to leave, i can feel the hatred from his eyes.

suddenly, a stranger ㅡ an old man on his 50's ㅡ came and talked to me, " hey young man. why are you here ? "

i ignored him. he probably just drunk and spit the nonsense.

" there must be a reason why you are  here. " i ignored him again and then the auntie gave me the soju. i quickly spill the soju into the small glass.

" it's rude to ignore someone older than you, you know. as well as not full up my glass first. " i shrugged. ahjussi, i seriously not in the mood right now.

" ahjussi, i'm sorry. but can you please leave me alone? i don't really need your help. " that man just chuckled at my statement.

" i'm not ahjussi. i'm a doctor. psychiatrist. and based on your face expression.. owhh without coat huh? have a big fight? " he took my glass and poured the soju into it. he drank it and looked into my eyes. he then smiled at me.

haish his smile really irritating me.

" with who? parents? girlfriend? "

" i'm sorry but i don't think a doctor have a right to ask me personal matter. mr. professor, could you please leave me alone ? thank you. " i took my glass back and continue to drink soju.

let's just say that i'm addicted to its taste.

but it doesn't feel the same since this old man is here.

" young man ㅡ " i cut his word

" i have a name. seokjin. "

" seokjin-shi.. may i give you a little advice? " i was distructed by the vibrate from my phone. it kept vibrated and shows 리더 남준이 that was calling.

i ignore it and from my screen, i could tell that i have 18 missed call from namjoon and 6 from jungkook.

" aren't you going to answer it? seems like they worried about you. "

" they don't need me. " i stared at the table, sadly. i don't know why but my vision began to blur.

" i'm useless. " i whispered and drink another shot.

" it's just your mind make you think like that. just ignore what your mind said but follow what your heart say... "

" you kept hearing the wonderful moment with them and you are about to cry now. it's shows how much you wanted to be with them. "

yeah yeah. this psychologist man seriously don't gimme time alone.

" he said he don't wanna meet me again. i mean, it's literally like that. he scold me and wanted me to leave. for good. what do you expect for me to do? i just want to walk out from their life and stop being a burden. " he nodded.

" seokjin-shi. hear me okay. he may not mean what he said. he may not want you to go. and he probably waiting for you at home. "

" i once fought with my wife. little did i know that was the last time i met her. i regretted it until now and forever.  if i could turn back the time, i would fix it and maybe we can be happy. " he picked out a piece of card and put it on the table. i took it and read the detail. kang il joon. professor of psychological department. SJ Hospital.

he tapped my shoulder and smile, " so, young man. don't make decision that you may regret. because it's painful to endure. " he then stood up and walked out from the soju's stall.

yes, right. if i didn't fix it, i will regret it later and forever.

i picked up the phone and called jimin.

" hyung.. " he answered my call. i could hear his sob.

" i'm sorry. please, come back. "