𝒮𝓂𝒾𝓁ℯ ℱ𝓁ℴ𝓌ℯ𝓇 ❀ ℬℯ𝓎ℴ𝓃𝒹 𝒯𝒽ℯ 𝒮𝒸ℯ𝓃ℯ ✔

s e v e n

JIMIN ;

it had been 5 hours since that accident happened and jin hyung was nowhere to be found. the feeling of guilt and anxious kept hunting me because it was indeed part of my fault.

I let out my anger on the oldest member and now i need to fix this.

i quickly dialed seokjin hyung's number but stopped at the thought that maybe.. maybe the older don't want to talk to me and don't even bother to answer the phone.

i ran my hands thorugh my hair roughly. i am not the person that will treat older people disrespectfully but i think i was too stressed with the scheduled and the comments on our online board.

it was too rough and the words that had been used by the knet were offensive. i had even got a few death threathen that was delivered to our dorm.

" jimin-ah. you have delivery but i don't know who the sender is."  soojin hyung gave the black velvet box with the ribbon tied to it. it even have a card attached to it.

i was happy at the thought that it was my first time to get a gift from my fan but that beautiful thought didn't stay any longer when i opened the box.

i threw the box away from me and started to cry. my legs can't endure that much surprised and just bumped to the floor. i hugged my knees and just keep crying.

what did i do in my past life to experience this kind of humiliating ?

if only i can calm my ass down and just ignored the comments,

if only i just threw that box away,

if only i think rationally when i said those harsh worda to seokjin,

all of this didn't happened and we should have go out together and laugh  until our stomach burst.

if only.. i could tell namjoon hyung the reason why i became like this, the preception of namjoon towards me will changed. he saw me like nothing but a worthless monster that can ripped his soul away from his body.

all i can do is cry. cry for my endless  stupidity and selfish ass. all of us were literally suffered but your selfishness had made the situation became even worse.

i could feel the vibration came from my phone and lazily grabbed it. my hands were trembling as well as my body.

" hyung.. " i said while crying my heart out. he didn't anwered so i just decide to keep talking. " where are you now ? "

" why you ask? " because i care about you.

" would you come back to our dorm tonight? " i begged you. please say you do want to sleep here.

" jimin-ah. iㅡ " i cut his words, scard of what he might say. it could be he wanted to say about leaving the group. or ask if i meant what i just said earlier or maybe.. to tell me to never contact me again and threw me away from his life.

i don't want that. ever since i first time came to bighit, he was the one that always care for me. whispered to me all the beautiful and meaningful things to my ears whenever i fell asleel on his shoulder.

i don't want to lose my precious hyung just because my stupid action.

" i'm sorry. please come back. i really really sorry. i don't mean it. for fuck sake, i really don't mean it so, please hyung. lend me your shoulder because i need you right now. "

silence. no answer from seokjin made me even sadder and kept crying until i heard a rough sound from my door. i looked up to see what's going on but i can't because someone hugged me all of the sudden. and that someone is seokjin..

my tears came down even faster and sobbed on seokjin's shoulder. his broad shoulder finally had a lot of advantages.

" hyung.. " i sniffed. i wanted to keep talking but my voice were really crack so i need to wait until my voice get better.

i could felt seokjin patted my heads with his hand and another one on my back. he shushed me to help me to calm down and whispered to my ears that everything's gonna be okay.

" i'm sorry. please don't leave. we need you here. " i tugged his shirts tightly, afraid of losing him again.

" shhhh, jimin. i understand. now, go to sleep. " his voice was so calm and made me feel safe and protected. i decided to trust him and fell asleep in his warm and cozy hug.

JIN;

" i could never leave you guys alone. "

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do you know how scary social media could be? how scary our tongue and hands can be? just by typing harsh words can kill someone.

we are all human. please treat others like one.

these pictures are the harsh  comments by korean netizen. i wonder how they endure all of the pain if they read these.