𝒮𝓂𝒾𝓁ℯ ℱ𝓁ℴ𝓌ℯ𝓇 ❀ ℬℯ𝓎ℴ𝓃𝒹 𝒯𝒽ℯ 𝒮𝒸ℯ𝓃ℯ ✔

f o u r t e e n

NAMJOON;

i look at my hyungs.. we are shooting the BTS run for our fans. this show really meant something to us. when we started this show, we only have 800+ viewers which we only recorded it using the low quality of camera and few staffs, we also recorded it in the tiny, old practice room. times goes by, that old and tiny room becoming more wide and have enough space for hundreds staffs. 

i remember when i choose BTS instead of going solo. that time, the most important for me is the teamwork and our members. they're special and i'm nothing without them. 

i remember when we all had a tough times to keep our sorrow away. jimin's extreme diet and his fight with jin hyung. 

i remember when jin hyung needed to buy us more snacks and foods because we always hungry and our budget is not enough to cover it all. jungkook looks with his big wide doe bambi eyes, asking to his hyungs if there's more food for him to eat. 

i remember it all. now, i smile when i know we need no worries to eat dozens of meats everyday, thousands of overnight snacks and billions of online ordering. 

not gonna lie, i feel so small when most of my friend is successful when they reached 22 years old and there's me, struggling with my mental and physical to produce new songs and to catch up most of the hard choreography.

but i did it. i overcome my biggest fear of being a failure and instead, i'm being someone's inspiration. i walked through the adversity to strive for my dreams but instead, i'm becoming someone's dream. 

i'm my role model and you can be one. just trust and believe in yourself and pooff, you can get it. 

if one day you wanna cry so bad, you feel like life makes you feel useless, worthless and you feel like the world will be better without you, remember that there's 7 men in South Korea who adore and care for you and you can make us as a reason to stay alive and enjoy your precious  time while you can. please use us as your shield while you're not wearing your mask. i'm sure you will slowly take off your happy mask if you gradually find and searching for yourself.

love yourself.