University Student

Chapter One: FIREPLAY

Chapter One: FIREPLAY

Being friendly is not my nature

Especially if you're only up for some favor

Go catch some fish from the ocean

Tell me if you find a gullible one

Syl's POV

I AM STUCK in my room for the next three days. Nagpaiwan ako kay Mama dahil ayaw kong sumama sa kanya. She'll be engrossed with work again and probably ignore me once we get to where she's going. Ayaw ko siyang mapahiya sa mga kasamahan niya. Tama na ang pagback-out ko sa modeling career ko pati ang hindi pagsuot ng mga damit na pinaghirapan niyang gawin.

And because I dropped out of school two years ago, Mama insisted homeschooling for me. We had enough arguement for a week until she dropped the bomb.

"Talking to yourself doesn't make you an idiot, it's what you call self-grooming." I am in my bed typing for a blog post. Something that keeps me sane. My way in engaging to the outside world.

Honestly, mahirap matuto kapag walang competition. Walang challenge na magmo-motivate sa 'yo. Walang constant variable para malaman kung may improvement ka nga batalaga. Nasa 'yo ang focus at full attention ng teacher. Yung tipong isang mali lang sa symbol at placing ng apostrophe mapapansin niya.

Hindi ko alam kung saan at kailan nagsimulang makalimutan ko yung dating Sylvia. Nasanay na akong mag-isa, walang ibang kausap, kontento sa katahimikan ng buhay, at pinatutunayang some man is an island. Na kahit kailan hindi ko pinangarap.

Feel like I'm in a holding cell...

An epitome of an Outcast.

Niri-read ko yung pinaka-una kong post:

Everybody has their own unique quality that no one can fully imitate considering that there is no such thing as 'exact' even when it comes measurement. I remember the time I was told to stack 10 one peso coins together so we could change it into paper bills afterward. A few moments passed, I grew tired of counting the same digits and so I decided to simply stack them up and make sure that they're in the same height. Turns out, the coins have dissimilar width. This opposes the concept of the famous phrase, "to see is to believe".

People in modern times tend to know but don't understand.They simply notice individuals that may seem 'weird' or that's not the 'typical' kind. They focus on those they're not used to see or hear, be intrigued, and then try to get the story but never the reason.

This led me to somehow figure out what is in a person that the other doesn't have to be treated indifferently. And in some instances, I usually compare a certain subject's quality to what most possess.

Typical---

Naistorbo ang pagbabasa ko ng biglang may mag-doorbell. "The only destruction I have..." Inalam ko muna ang oras bago piliting tumayo. Dire-diretso ang lakad palabas sa kwarto bitbit ang laptop at headset na nakasabit sa leeg. Kahit sinong buong buhay na tumira sa bahay na 'to, siguradong tatamarin sa pagbaba-taas ng hagdan na may 60 steps.

Modern design ang bahay na'min having dominant color of gray na kaka-renovate pa lang last month. It was all Mama's idea.

Nang makadating ako sa tapat ng gate, nakita ko si Teacher Daisy na nakapamaywang habang hawak ang kanyang floral na pamaypay na panay sa paghampas. Kapansin-pansin din ang pagka-irita sa mukha niya. Marahil ay dahil sa init ng panahon.