A R I A
I wake up at 2pm. Ugh I'm tired and look like death threw up on me. I yawn stretching my arms and shake my head a bit causing my hair to get out of it's bed head stage and into a more regular messy hair stage...if that makes sense? I get up and walk straight to the bathroom taking a quick shower and then looking in the mirror with just my towel. I smile and then my mood changed drastically. I started thinking about yesterday and everything. I started to cry thinking about this and it just gets worse and worse that I start feeling like I can't breath and that there is something stabbing my lungs.
I rush into my room and open the nightstand drawer. In there, there is a box of razors and my inhaler. I check the back of it and see I only have 20 puffs left. I wouldn't have the time to order a new prescription at this rate. Still breathing heavy I grab open the box of the tiny blades and take one out. I brush it across my wrists going up my arm until I stop crying and get that soothing feeling of relief. I was bleeding, not a lot. The girls will get me to talk a bit about this and I'm fine because I'm comfortable with them, but it certainly will get me tearing up again.
I sigh. It's only one arm right? I get dressed in Steven Universe themed crop top I ordered off Hot Topic a few months back and I braided my hair on both sides. I get some skinny jeans on and a pair of socks.
Though my arm is visible I'll be good in today's video. I know what today's video will be.
"Yo Allie! Sophie! Get your, butts in here. Allie bring the keyboard? I've got the sheet music already for you on laptop!" I yell.
They come into my room and they immediately notice my arm.
"I know you don't like all that sappy bullshit," Allie starts.
"But just letting you know that we care about you and want you to stop again," Sophie finishes the sentence.
"Yeah yeah, just sing this song with me. You are the first part." I say handing her a paper.
I start the stream on youtube then I pull the mic down closer to our mouths and then Allie starts playing the keyboard.
"Take a moment to think of just, flexibility, love, and trust
Take a moment to think of just, flexibility, love, and trust
Here comes a thought, that might alarm you
What someone said and how it harmed you
Something you did that failed to be charming
Things that you said are suddenly swarming"
She sings that easily, but I kind of make her restart so that she can use a bit deeper voice because I have a child like voice when singing and that was to be used for the second half. So she restarts in the perfect key and then I start singing as well.
"Here comes a thought, that might alarm me
What someone said and how it harmed me
Something I did that failed to be charming
Things that I said are suddenly swarming
And Oh I'm losing sight, I'm losing touch
All these little things seem to matter so much
That they confuse me, that I might lose me
Take a moment remind yourself to
Take a moment and find yourself
Take a moment and ask yourself if this is how we fall apart"
I continued singing and ended the song only to start talking to the camera.
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Rivals ➸ sidemen
FanfictionI don't know why but I (Allie) am always the one who's told to write descriptions and I can not in fact write a good description. So here's a mediocre couple sentences that actually have nothing to do with the book. Written by: @digmedownzerk @allie...
