Why Me? (A Phan Fiction)//COMPLETED

Chapter 20

Trigger warning!

I make sure the door is locked, and I grab the pills and the razor.

I turn the tap on the water and watch as it fills up.

I look in the mirror and cry.

I saw that Grace wrote "Hetero" on my forehead. I struggle to wash it off at the sink and cry some more. I stare at all my cuts and bruises. I cry harder.

I turn the tap off once the bathtub is full, and step in, pills and razor in hand.

I hear someone knock at the door.

"Honey?" I hear Phil say.

"Supper is ready."

I ignore him and cry.

I cut my wrists and make sure to cut as hard as possible.

"Ashley?" Dan calls.

"Are you okay?"

When I'm sure I cut a vein, I go ahead and swallow the pills. I cut some more, crying.

"ASHLEY!" They yell as they beat on the door.

"Goodbye..." I whisper and keep cutting.

I feel as though I'm holding a million pounds, and I fall into the water. I lay in the red filled water.

I see two figures shaking me, crying.

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Dan-

"ASHLEY!" Phil and I yell as we beat against the door.

I finally kick the door open to see Ashley fall.

We run to her and shake her.

"Ashley!" Phil screams.

"No!"

"Come back Ashley!" He yells.

I stare at her lifeless body and cry.

I cradle Phil in my arms as he cries.

"S-she's gone..." he whimpers.

"Shh...."

"It's okay..." I whisper.

I pick up Ashley's limp body and take her to her room.

I clean her up and tuck her into bed.

I stare at her and cry.

She's really gone...

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So, that was it.

I have never cried so hard in my entire life. I feel as though I can prevent this but I don't know how and it makes me so sad that so many people have died because they committed suicide. I feel as though I am apart of their family and I cry for them.

I really hope you guys enjoyed this book! I'm so glad how far this book has gone and I'm really sorry if this is not how you wanted it to end. I've been planning this book for almost a year. It's actually based off of a YouTube video. The girls name is actually Ashley and these things actually happen to her except their are different names for her bullies. And she wasn't adopted by Phan. It's called, Imagine A World Where Being Gay, The Norm, And Being Straight Is Not. It's a very sad story and I cry every time I watch it.

But enough about crying! I'm really glad you guys read this book but I don't understand why, it's so bad XD but thank you guys so much!