Once In A Lifetime

Terrified

Melissa's POV

I didn't know what to think or how to deal. I was almost raped but Seth stopped him. All I could think was I could have been raped. If Seth never would have came, it could have happened. I didn't know how to deal. I felt ashamed of it as I felt I did something wrong to lead him on. But I was still scared. I felt on edge. I knew he was in jail but I felt like my nightmare was far from over. I could tell Seth was concerned. So I put on a show. After a few days, I acted like I was much better. I smiled and put on a front. I felt I needed to for my family. I buried it all down deep. It has been a few weeks since the incident. Seth and I haven't done much of anything in the intimacy department. He never pushed but I never wanted it as well. I was already up for the day as it was weekend. The movie I was working on was on pause cause of the incident. So, I spent a lot more time at home. So, I got up as I couldn't sleep and made breakfast for everyone. The kids came rushing down and ran into the kitchen. The quickly went into making their plates. Having mostly boys was chaotic when it came to meal time cause well they ate a lot. I laughed as they moved around me and tried to get out of the way. Seth then came downstairs as he was dressed for the day. He had Jennifer in his arms and I walked over to them as I smiled. I said, "Morning, baby girl. You hungry?"

She almost bounced in her father's arms and I took her from him. He moved in and gave me a gentle kiss. I kissed him but I didn't return the same affection. As of late, I didn't even want to be kissed or touched. I then moved away as I sat Jennifer in her highchair. I went to the baby food I had prepared for her and feed her. The boys were finally seated as they ate. Seth moved over to me and asked, "Baby, want me to make you a plate?"

I looked up and gave him a small smile. "I'm okay. I'm not really hungry."

He sat next to me and moved an arm around me. "Love, you need to eat. You barely eat anymore."

I knew I had to get better at acting like I was better. I then smiled and nodded. "Alright, make me a plate."

"What do you want?" He smiled.

"Whatever is fine." I said to him.

He moved away and I continued to feed Jennifer. A few minutes later, Seth was back at the table and set a plate in front of me. He sat down as he had a plate for himself. I just kept feeding Jennifer. Seth began to eat. He looked over at me as he took a few bites. "So, I was thinking, maybe you and I can do something, alone, tonight."

"I don't know." I only said. I really didn't want to go out. I haven't want to go out since everything had happened.

Then my mother walked in and said, "Lissa, let your husband take you out. You two need time alone."

I rolled my eyes and said, "I rather just stay in."

"Lissa." My mom sternly said.

I knew she would not let up. I sighed. "Fine." Then I looked at Seth and asked, "What do you have planned?"

"You will see." He said with a smirk.

I just sighed to myself. I didn't want to go out. I didn't want to do anything. I just wanted to stay home. Even when I needed to give my statement, I didn't want to go. Seth forced me, telling me we couldn't let this guy get away with it. But I just wanted it behind me. I wanted all of it to just go away. Seth finished his meal and said, "I can finish feeding her so you can eat."

I wasn't hungry so I was using her as an excuse. I quickly told Seth, "She is almost done, I can finish up."

"Nonsense, I will do it. You need to eat." He said to me.