UnKnown

7

 Okay you guys this chapter covers abuse and depression. It also subliminally talks about self harm.  *TRIGGER WARNING*

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" what do you mean?", He tilts his head and grabs my hands in front of us.

"I take a deep breath and lead him to sit down on my bed, i stay standing.

"When my dad left.. Well before he left. Like years before. We- we had a great relationship," i am already pacing around the room, "he wasn't the BEST dad but who really is ya know? But when he met his wife. Things changed and he became physically and mentally abusive."

"One time he beat me, not spank/punishment type of beating, but a full blown rage because i wanted to go home and be with my mom." Tears are already in my eyes and i look at him, he looks choked up too.

"His wife was like telling him that i was a disgrace, Hi-His own little girl."

Nicholas stands up and engulfs me in a bear hug. "Cray-baby, you're okay."

I'm not angry but i shove him off, "I'm not okay, you don't get it nick. I spent nights crying over a man who was supposed to always be there for me. We planned SO many things. I hurt myself because of him. I didn't have a full happy day until this week, three years of my life was taken away from me. I pushed people away. I couldn't look at myself the same, because if my dad didn't want me.. Then who did?" I broke down crying.

He just goes back to holding me and swaying us back and forth until my breathing goes back to normal.

"I have anxiety attacks.. And that day, that you asked about my family.. I was really caught off guard. I didn't 'not feel well', i had an anxiety attack." When i say this, i feel him squeeze me harder and he places his head into the crook of my neck. "My dad left me too." i cry harder.

This boy who was AMAZINGLY sweet and so kind, was just like me. He, also, did well at hiding his feelings. We just stay there and eventually we lay on my bed until both of our breathes are even.

We fell asleep.

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This was a very emotional chapter, even for me. I am not going to say there will be smooth sailing from here because by the end of this book. You guys may just hate me. But i love you guys and without you. MY book wouldn't have been possible. Stay beautiful :))