Princess

Ballet Slipper

Deon cupped her face within her hands crying uncontrollably as she slide down to the floor crunching herself into a ball repeating over and over,

"Please Li..Please don't leave me..Don't leave us. We fight, we can still fight."

"D..please don't do this to me. Please.." Lilac said to her as she began to cry kneeling down next to Deon holding her close,

"Please D..please."

I open my eyes and sigh. I'm remembering more and more each day, and none of it is making sense. I look over at the tablet mama got me and reach until I grab it. I sit up in my bed and speak to it,

"Hi Siri" I say pressing the home button.

"Hello there, Ari. How can I help you?" Siri says back making me smile.

"Okay Siri, what is cancer?" I speak into my iPad almost yelling.

"Here is what I found:" Siri says pulling up an article from wik-i-pedi-a? I don't know how to say it, but it says cancer is a group. A group of something in the body and that they can cause tu-mors that can spread too! It even said there were 100 different types. Shocked by this I reach for my night stand again, opening up my draw to get my notepad and fluffy pink pen, I like my pink pen. It has pink ink too! Anyways once I pull that out, I make a circle and put "Know" at the top, then start to copy all the things I know about mommy leaving. I start with:

1. Mommy left because of cancer.

2. Mama didn't want mommy to leave.

3. Mommy was in pain.

4. Mommy was loosing hair.

5. Mommy threw up a lot.

6. Mama didn't know she stop going to the doctor.

7. Mommy was changing and didn't want me to see.

That was all I really knew. I didn't know where she went, I just when-- that night because she never came back. Ever. I always wondered why mommy left us..it always made me sad. I make another circle and put at the top, "Don't Know". I begin that list with this:

1. What is Cancer, and why was it with mommy?

2. Why did mommy wanna go with cancer?

3. Why was mama so upset mommy didn't wanna go see her doctor anymore?

4. Why was mommy so sick? And why did I never know?

5. Where is mommy? Why she never come back?

I finish and stare at my paper. I think to myself, how am I gonna figure this out? Where do I even start? Siri tried to help me but she using big words! I don't know wh-what wik-i-pedi-a is ! Or means! Then it hits me, I'm going to need help. I reach for my iPad forgetting I'd broken that arm and flinch. Mm..broken bones hurt. I reach for it again, with the other arm and tapping the FaceTime icon. I go to the favorites mama had saved for me, and click Aunty Ame. It starts to ring, and ring. Finally before I go to press the red button to hang up like mama also showed me she anwsers with a big smile,

"Heyyyyy! Look! Look! Who's also here?!" She says flipping to the front camera and showing Gigi Celina. I wave back smiling big and giggling.

"Hiiiiii Gigi! Hiiiiii Auntie Ameeeee!" I say back waving with my other hand and props my iPad up on my sheets,

"I miss you!"

"Awww belle âme! We miss you so much more!" Gigi Celina says smiling big,

"I have to go, but you have Gigi's number right?" She continues with while picking up her purse.