Princess

Flamingo

Yesterday was a lot. We rode home in silence. Now I'm sitting down in the living room watching tv. Mama said she didn't know why mommy left..I could tell she was telling the truth by the way she cried with me. She didn't know too, so I decided to think of people who could know. Sitting with my notepad and pen in hand I began making another list.

1. Auntie Amethyst
2. Gigi Celina
3. Mama's bestfriend, Tiffany.

After making this list I begin to think of why each of these people may know why mama left, and why she was at Parlo Lake. I decide Auntie Ame may know because she's mommy's sister and what wouldn't she know? They're sisters. Now Gigi Celina may know too because she's mommy's mommy. Mommies know all. And then finally mommy's bestfriend, Tiffany. Best friends are just like sisters and brothers mama always tells me, cherish them as you cherish family. So these three people are all I got, and I'm getting to them all three today. I get up and walk upstairs to my room. I grab my iPad and click the Facetime App, and scroll to Gigi and click. As it rings I think over my questions making sure not to forget anything and not to get off track.

"Hello! There's my Ari Bari! How's that arm baby?" Gigi Celina says pouting once she sees my cast.

"I fine, Gigi. I okay, but I have a question for you." I say rubbing my cast because I was getting nervous,

"Um...Why..Why did mama leave? Why did she leave to Parlo Lake? And why did Mama not want her to go?" Gigi's smile falls as if it could have drop right off her face. All of a sudden Gigi had aged. Lines around her lips, her eyes, slight ones on her forehead all appeared magically. Pain made her age.

"Ari..how did you find out about that? You were not suppose to know of this until you were a lot older than this. Did your mama or Auntie Ame tell you of this?" She said leaving the living room of her house and going to her room.

"No, I have had this dream and in this dream each time I remember something new from when Mama and Mommy fought that night. Last night it was Mommy saying she was going to Parlo Lake and that she would like it if Mama and I came to see her. Where is Parlo Lake? Why did Mama leave us for there? And why did she go there to end? Why didn't she want to end here...with us?" I say as I look down playing with my fingers. I could feel the tears start to slowly come to my eyes. Tears seemed to like playing with my eyes these days.

"Baby..In all honesty..and I know you're young to be saying this to you but I rather you know the truth. Your mommy was tired, so so tired. She fought her cancer. Long and hard. Your mommy was no punk. A lion, brave and full of courage. But cancer just didn't wanna let her go baby.." Gigi says as she looks away. I look harder and see she is trying to hide her tears. Gigi missed mommy too.

"So mommy gave up and left because she was tired? And cancer was treating her body too mean?" I say wiping my tears away as they escape my eyes as they always did. I don't know why I always try to stop them when they always win.

"Yes, she gave up because she was tired but she didn't leave because of that baby. She left because she didn't want her to see what cancer had done to her, and would do to her further. Cancer is not a pretty think baby. It can really change a person and Lilac..your mommy never ever wanted you to witness th-"

"Witness?" I say cutting her off tilting my head to the side and sniffing.

"It means see something."

"Oh okay. So mommy was changing..in a bad way because of cancer and she didn't want me to see it because?" I say back scratching my head trying as hard as I could to understand why mommy would think I wouldn't like her even if she changed.