Looks Can Deceive

Chapter 18

All I can think is that I killed her. I killed Kim's sister. True, I didn't pull the trigger. But it would have been the same if I had. Now all I have is this note she wanted to give to Kim. I have to read it. I have to know there relationship. I want to know what was worth getting killed for. I open up the crumpled paper.

Dear Kim,

All I really want to say is how much I miss you. I see you in a lot of the people here. I miss your smile the most. You used to always like when I smiled. I guess it's a sister thing. You'd be angry, I don't smile much anymore. I can't with out you. You were the only reason to smile after Pops died. I have nothing to smile for now. Life is sucks. Little food. I am starving everyday. I miss the food you used to make. My favorite used to be your chicken soup. I have gotten used to the little food. I mean you have too. I can't believe I haven't seen you for 3 years. How much have you changed? I hope not a lot. My room isn't that bad. I share with 3 other girls. They don't talk much. No one does, we don't really have enough energy. Well you don't have time either. Sleep is very important here. If you can't work, you can't be here. How is your schooling going? I hope it is going well, take English for me. I hope you meet a man, that you love. I haven't met anyone that I truly love. But I hope too. Someday. How was your summer with Mom? Is she getting better. I really hope she is. I miss her, specially when she was happy. I hope your life is great. Mine isn't, it can't be without you. I am trying though. Really I am. Don't worry. I won't give up. Kim, I really hope someday you come to see me. Find a way. I know you promised. But it seems less likely that you will come. The guards are getting stricter about people. I will try to write to you again. I love you sissy. Oh Kim. Don't forget there is always a reason to smile.

Love, Grace

I am crying. She loved her sister so much. No wonder Kim is so mean. She has lost a lot. I know my parents are dead. That is the easiest. To know they are truly gone. Well she is now. I can't even imagine knowing someone you love is still there. Knowing you could be with them. Grace and Kim, were close. You can tell. When I shared a room with Kim, I didn't know she had a sister. I always assumed she hated blondes. She must not. I can tell by the way Grace talks to her. They love each other.

I will never be able to get Grace out of my head. I can never un see her. She died. All she wanted was to talk to her sister. Some one she loved so much. She had things to look forward too. Her husband, children. Even though she's here she had reasons to be happy. Kim promised to come to her. But now she's gone. Will they tell Kim? I think so. They should. I can't, she will know where I was. I will out the paper in her things in class.

All this time hating Kim. I feel ashamed. She just wanted her sister. Or her mom. Or dad. She lost a lot. Maybe all Kim wanted was a real friend. Someone to tell. About her sister, mom, everything. That's all I wanted. I know found that person. And know I need to help find Kim's. She deserves it.

I finally realize where I am. I am still in the cramped hallway. I need to get to the Factory room. I need to see all these people. I safely tuck the paper in my pocket. I dry my eyes and head down the small passage. There is still blood on the floor from her. The people in the hallway, felt like this was normal. I am disgusted that seeing a person die, is probably normally. Grace will probably be one of the many to die today. My stomach churns. I feel sicker the closer I get to the room.

I reach the doors. I want to turn around. I want to go back to my room. I want back to Bratten. That is where I belong. No. I need to see this. I turn the handle, fling the large door open. This is the worst thing I have ever seen.