I Hate You I Love you

chapter 12

Here is a picture of Sami's bikini.
After dressing up I went to the pole sitting there. When noah saw me he eyed me for long. Then he said god how much u want to kiss you right now. Wel Noah you can't. And why not. Wel one because I have a Justin and you have Emma so you can't have me and two am carrying Justin baby do I'm sorry. What doe you mean by I have Emma how do you know about her if I might ask. Wel your sister told me and Justin too he said you guys were dating. So yeah there is nothing you can do about that know can you. Wel we broke up because it was for a Month and after that we broke up . Why? Because that is what I became after you left I became someone how just use girls and when he got what he wanted he ended things. But with you I feel different you make me wanna change to become a better person for you and for my self. I have miss you so much and seeing you here makes me happy and at the sametime it hurts me to see you with my brother. I still and will always love you no matter what happen or what you are going throw we will go through together. Noah I have Justin now and I can't do this to him am sorry . I know bye the way how do you know Eva? Mmmmm wel she came to visit me once with Justin I feed bad the last time I saw her she look so sad and told me she was going to have Justin baby. Mmm I feed so bad just because of what she had been throw but I was also pregnant and I couldn't help her I mean Justin and I had this big fight about everything that he did to her. Finally she said she was going to keep the baby but needed no help sins Justin told her he just used her and wanted nothing to do with her. Well she and Pablo will be living for Washington tonight. What do you mean with Pablo. Wel Pablo told her he will take care of her till she had the baby and finish college. Wow that is really sweet of him. Yeah I know. I have never had to lie so much in my in my life and I can belief all I told Noah right now I mean it was Justin idea if he ever aks if I knew Eva. With all this lies my life is changing more and more everyday and full of lies. How can I still look at my self in the mirror every morning. This is all to much for one person to deal with. But I am not alone I have Justin and the baby just have to keep the ask up. So Sami are you going to sit there or are you still gonna swim. I'm coming just promise you won't try something dirty. I won't . Entering the water Noah Carried me up and throw me in the water. Ahhhh. Stop but me down !!! As you which he drop me in the water. I said but me down not drop me I said. And he just smile. After swimming for more than and hour I was so tired I feed like sleeping. Are you oke Noah ask. No i feel sleepy. Wanna go inside? No i don't think I will make it there. He came carried me and we laid on a chair out side. And before I knew I feed at sleep. When I woke up I was in bed I wondered if Noah brought me up here. Getting out of bed I notice I was complity naked. Wtf who will first on dress a girl then put her in bed. Oh that will be me your bikini was wet so I took it off. Justin said. Wel am happy it was him not Noah. Babe mom said we could come live here a few months before you give birt that way dad can keep an eye on you and the baby so what do you say. It's fine by me but we have to live tommorow I have an apointemet with the doctor.

Justin p.o.v

When I came home today I saw Sami in Noah's arm they look so cute together. I know I sound weired but sins Noah's girlfriend left three yes ago he has been sad like heel. He never talks about it but I know him better at first I thought it was weired. Because he always cried when he was alone I new he was hurt but there was nothing I could do. My brother is everything to me he is my best friend even if we keep secrets form one another. After the day she left he started using girls just for sex and that was it he tried dating a few but after a Month or two he will break up with her. Making them feel like they meant nothing to him. So seeing the smile on his face when he was at sleep with Sami in his arm. Made me happy that she could make him smile again I miss that. So u went pick her up and tool her up stairs soms of was getting cold. Dad took Noah upstairs. When she woke up she look like she was lost. And then just said who the fuck will take off a girls dress before putting her in bed. Look at her from behind she look like some top mordel. She was hot and pretty and the way her hair laid on her back made me wanna make love to her on the spot. But I knew I couldn't I don't want her to go throw what she did agian. I don't wanna see her in a hospital New just because she is on pian. I can't help but hope that when she is having the baby that she doesn't go throw so much pain I don't think I would be able to take it. I never thought I would fall so her for a girl in my life but I did. I just have the feeling she is keeping something from me even if I don't know what it's i will ask her but not right now or let's hope she tells me on her own. Befor4xe it's starts eeting her up i don't want that for her. So babe wanna go on a walk with me I ask her. Sure but I have to eat first or i don't think I will make it halfway. Sure thing I look at her she was dress in some black jeans and black nikes and I grey top with a black ladder jacket. Her belly was not even showing so you wouldn't even know she was pregnant. She but her hair up in a ponytail . And ask me if she she look oke you don't look oke you are beautiful and hot I went close pull her and kiss her. After eating we left. We're we going to she ask. Not telling.