I should have kissed you.

Chapter 2 : Bye, bye Mackenzie

"Mackenzie Daniel's 19 years old. She will be in our hearts forever. She will never escape our minds. She put a smile to each of our faces and she brought us joy. May she Rest in peace. she is now in a another place. A Better place, where she will be loved..." The priest says. My hand in Liam's. I look up at him. He was tearing up. I now thank Mackenzie if it wasn't for this i wouldn't be with Liam. I miss her though my best friend. The day i meant Mackenzie i knew she wasn't the best behaved. She knew how to be a wild child. She help me live my life the fun way. We both made some mistakes but we both had no regrets. 

The funeral was a little  awkward for both me and Liam. Mackenzie's friends stared us down. Like we were doing something wrong. It was clear the didn't have any respect for us. I know what was running through minds about me. And about Liam. One would think oh " Savannah is such a slut, her best friend dies and she steals her boyfriend. That's just wrong." Other are probably thinking " Liam is such a player once his bitch dies he goes for her best friend." But they don't understand. They make these quick assumptions with out knowing our story. They wouldn't care. Now days all people ever do is judge you and don't change there mind about anything. 

I look over i can see Mackenzie's Mom staring at my hand that being held by Liam. It crushes her. I can tell she knows that Mackenzie really liked Liam. I have heard Mackenzie go on and on with her mother. Telling her every little detail. I remove my hand only for a little. I can see how uncomfortable it makes her. Liam looks at me and i nod my head to hint towards Mackenzie's mom who seems just a little more relaxed now. Its hard seeing her like that hard seeing her full of tears. I feel bad for her its been only a year and half since her husband died. Mackenzie was an only child. So she is Alone now. Alone forever. She adored Mackenzie. Spent so much time with her. Mackenzie was her everything. 

Speeches were made i was after Liam who was making his speech now. " Mackenzie was a beautiful girl. Not only in my eyes but in everyone's. she made me smile and laugh. I really can't get it through my head that i will never see her again. I feel as if she is still here with me. I'm lucky to have someone to help me through this sad time. I wasn't as close to Mackenzie as alot of you that known her for years. But i know i loved Her and knew every time i looked in her eyes she loved me back!." Listening to his speech made feel a little nervous but he winked at me reassuring me it was only just a speech and i was his girl. 

Everyone clapped and i walked up while he walked back to his I start my speech "I remember the first day i meant Mackenzie, We became friend right than and there that moment. I told her every thing. She was the best friend ever. I wish..." I stopped in pause i looked out into the all the friends and family. But one person stood out Mackenzie was there she stood there smiled. I continued i tried to not let it get to me " I wish that could see her one more time. We all make mistakes and those mistakes have consequences. Unfortunately Mackenzie's mistake had a really bad consequence." I say assuming everyone knows the cause of Mackenzie's death. That she was getting high off pills she bought from someone at school. She took to Liam. 

"I love you" he whispers in my ear. I look at him and smile. But my smile turns straight to a frown. They play sad music, The people who have something to put in the casket to bury with her get up. One by one they put in there item. Liam got up. He put all the picture of them into the casket. I look at him when he comes back. " i couldn't hold on to them, looking at them would make me sad. Even if it was anyone who died i could never keep the photos. He said. 

They shut the casket and the priest starts to say something. After wards we all have time to talk and chat with all the friends and family. Alt of people looked at me and Liam but never came up. Mackenzie's mom did we said a few things and she walked away. I went to go grab us some drinks, It was hard i didn't want to drink a alcoholic drink when Liam cant because of his 1 kidney. so i grab some punch. For the both of us. 

Afterwards Liam drives me home. which is not really anywhere since i live right next door to him. I unbuckle my seat belt and he grabs my arm. I look at him and he leans in for a kiss. Again just like every time he kisses me. I feel like a drift away into a different world. It seems that nothing can brake us apart. Except my mom tapping on the car window. He pulls back and we both giggle. My mom is just standing there shes laughing to. she just loves interrupting my love life doesn't she. Before i get out i notice something new in Liam car. It was a little buzz light-year figure hanging from the mirror in the car. Inside the helmet was a picture of me and Liam when we were younger. I smile and kiss on the cheek before i get out. 

As i walk to go back inside the with my mom. Liam beeps the horn. I run back to the car.

" did i forget something? " i asked.

" No babe i forgot to ask you, where do you want to have our first date?" he says. Winking at me.

" Oh, I'm driving and it's going to be a surprise. Just you wait." I say winking back. He flashes his cheeky smile and i walk inside. Lay flat out on my bed. I wish i had someone to talk to about Liam. I close my eyes and drift to a sleep. 

My dream was a weird dream. Mackenzie had been standing by my bed when i walked in from her funeral with Liam. It was like instead of a funeral it was a date. She was in her pajamas sitting there with popcorn. Spill all the details. Is he a good kisser? Does he only pay attention to you? What are some turn ons? Or turn offs? she went on and on with questions. I answered every single one of them. And it felt good to have someone to talk to. Even though in the real world she gone. Dreams were good enough. 

" Well, duh he is a amazing kisser, And I'm the only girl he see's in his eyes. Turn on's about him, are his cheeky smile, They way he listens,His cute adorable love for toy story. and Turn off's none really. I love him Mackenzie. I love him." i say answering her question.

I open my eyes to see my mom standing right there looking at me like i was crazy. 

" Sleep talking isn't Really you? Are you okay?" 

I laugh and say " I'm completely Fine Mom. Life is amazing." Now what to do about me and Liam's First date. I gotta think what would be the perfect surprise. Oh! i got it!