I should have kissed you.

Chapter 5: He forgives me, He forgives me not.

I stood there, sat there speechless, breathless, and motionless. It can't be true, all those times he said he loved me. Did he really mean it? Or was it an act. I couldn't breath for a while. I had to tell my self breath in.. than out. He never meant it when he said he loved me. All those pictures and he still forgot about us. I look at the picture above my bed. How could Liam brake my heart like that. 

My phone rings.I didn't want to answer, What if it was Liam. I watch it and than it stops a minute later i get a text. I walk over to read the text. One missed called from Liam. No voice mail but a text. It read... Hey babe you didn't answer you must be busy or asleep. Just wanted to say i love, and making sure your okay i got some BIG news for you. Call me in the morning, Night <3. I sigh. I want to believe that its true. That he loves me, What about the picture. He probably loves sluts like her to. A girl in a little black dress. Long blond hair. I didn't see her face but she is probably plastered with make-up.

I rip the picture off from above my bed. No need for that anymore. I gather all the pictures of me and Liam from around my room. I put them all in a box in my closet. The box of trash that i wont look at in forever. I change his name from Liam baby to Cheater. I have been cheated and walked on all over. It was a turning point for me. I made him my everything now I'm left with nothing. Flash backs of me and Liam reply in my head. The day he moved in next door to me, The time he beat up a kid for me, The time in his room i confessed my feelings for him, That moment on the beach, Our first kiss, First date. I remember how tightly he hed me in his arms. I begin to cry. It was all a lie. 

I lay on my bed. I don't want to sleep. I don't want to have the possibility of seeing Liam in my dreams. I don't but than i do. I want to be able to be proved I'm wrong prove the photo is fake. But i know a fake picture that picture was not photo shopped not at all. After a while of staring at the ceiling i drift into a sleep. I dreamt of Liam, He was in London. He was with a girl together they kept running from me. Liam i called Liam come back. He didn't even look at me, he laughed and giggled with the girl and ran. I got closer and closer. At a time i had lost them but i kept Looking. I found them kissing, i clear my throat. Liam i cry. He looks at me, than the girl. But not just some girl. It was Mackenzie. I wake from the nightmare. My phone had rang. 

I check my phone. It was Colton. I call him back. See what he wanted. I really wasn't in the mood for anything but it wouldn't hurt to here what he has to say. He answers. 

"Hey Savannah!" He says. So energetic.

" Hi Colton, i saw you called and thought maybe i see what was up?" i say trying to sound like i was interested.

" Oh yeah i just called to say hi, Maybe we could hang out to day. " he says hoping for a yes.

" Ummm." i start to say but he cuts me off.

"Oh come on Savannah, You said you would have coffee or lunch with me sometime. " He practically begs me.

" You know what sure Colton. I will. Lets go see a movie I'm in the mood for a movie. But its just as friends." I say not really caring what i do at this point.

"Great, text me the details, i got to go." He says hanging up.