My Friends And The Zombie Apocalypse.

Derrick's Group

(Trigger warning.) If you suffer from suicidal thoughts, you might not want to read this part. But, I would like to let you know, that if you have these thoughts, I understand. If you need to speak to someone, you can speak to me on the message board. Or talk to anyone. It will help.

The morning sun pours through the window. I look outside at the walkers, roaming around like my mind is. I'm making sense of what's happened in the past week.

All of those who have already died. They didn't deserve it. I continue stare out the window, thinking about John. I wonder where he is.

"What are you looking at?" Says Eli. I reply with, "Nothing. Just thinking about......" My voice trails off, with feelings of hatred and sorrow. He stares at the floor, thinking of a response. He says nothing for awhile, then says "I'm gonna go check on her."

I start to think about Gabe. Of course I'm thinking of him. He's the reason she's dead, my voices tell me. I know it's true, but I can't help feeling terrible for reacting the way I did. I was willing to kill him, without even asking June. I mean, he deserved it, no doubt. But I could've changed things.

"Derrick!!" I hear Eli yell. I run towards him and he hands me a note. It reads as follows:

" I hope you all know that I care for you. That I'm gone, but that I'm happy. I'll always love you but I had to move on. We all have our time, but mine was too far off. I love you."
                                            - June

"She's gonna kill herself. Where the hell is she?" I yell. They both say no and I run outside. I scream her name. I hear a bush rustle and I head toward it. She's sitting there, crying. "What the fuck are you doing?" I ask. I say it rather calm, surprisingly. She looks at me, tears rushing down her face.

"I'm leaving you behind. I'm ending it. The way you tried to. Remember? When she left you." She says.

It all flushes back to me. The peaceful place. I remember it all. The letter. My mind going dead. Stopping, incapable of going past it.

Me and her sit on a bench. We're in a park, and I'm about to say something important. I look at her, her loving smile. And I remember how beautiful she was.

"So. I was wondering if you'd like to talk" I say it with courage. And she looks at me and says one word. "Stop." She hands me a note. Then she leaves. I read it, and it basically says "we're through" in bold letters.

I look around. To see if anyone is there. And then I run. To my place of hiding. It has a beautiful river that flows out and it's clear water looks like shining diamonds. But I'm not here to look at the scenery. I told myself what to do if she left. So now I'm gonna do it.

I stick my head in the water. I let out all my air and try to breathe the water in. It turns a murky black and I feel the current welcoming me. Beckoning me to step in to suffocate.

But then, someone pulls me out. It's June and Eli. June stares at me with tears in her eyes. Eli's face is solemn and grim.

I snap back to reality. June is still crying and I'm not sure what to do. I just stand there. And then I hug her. She says, "Get off me." But I refuse. "I've been here before. All I can do is what I wanted back then. I just wanted a hug. From anyone who cared."

She cries more. And more until I don't think she can cry anymore. And when she's done, tears fill my eyes. Her name was Iris. The girl who left. I cared a bit too much, and fell for her, head over heels.

So we sit there for what seems like hours. Comforting each other. I remember how I felt then. When I tried to kill myself.

A/N

To real life Iris. This is loosely based around you, but not quite. So don't freak out. Please. Although you probably won't, anyway. You aren't really someone who I'm worried about freaking out this. So, that's it.