The Give Away

Chapter 5

'Morning sleepy head!' Jane exclaimed as she brushed her teeth in the mirror, toothpaste was all around her mouth. 'Morning' I yawned tiredly, Jane and I got ready for another full day of classes, we were ready a full 3 hours before the warning bell would go, I walked over to the door and opened it. 'Wait' She said holding my hand, I pulled her onto my bed 'What's going on?' I asked. 'I don't know, can you stay for a second?' She whispered. The girls in our dormitory left and I heard laughter from all the other girls in our school house as they ran down the stairs. I closed the door and sat on my bed next to my very confused twin. 'What's going on?' I asked her. 'I don't know. All I know is every since the holidays I have been quieter than normal, I just sit in silence all the time and I'm scared but I don't know why.' Jane said as she fell backwards onto my pillows using her arm to shield her eyes from the light. 'What do you mean?' I asked confusedly. 'Like I said I have no idea. All I know is everyday I am waking up and I can do more with my powers, like yesterday I found out I can see and know everything that's happened to a person just by looking into their eyes, like you, wait...you're feeling the same way aren't you.' She said. 'What? No....pshh what are you talking about?' I said nervously. She gave me this look like she knew I was lying, then again it was pretty obvious, I couldn't make eye contact, I was fidgeting and I was laughing nervously as I said it. 'Alright you caught me but it's been going on for a while and I don't want to tell anyone' I said sheepishly. 'Why not? You normally tell us whats going on, why are you hiding all if a sudden?' Jane said worriedly, a wave of emotions rushed over me like a ton of bricks. Confusion, shame, regret and pain swept over me in a blink of an eye. I looked down rubbing my hands and fingers over and over wringing them nervously. 'I just didn't want to sound like the kind of person who has a lot of problems that seem tiny to others but are huge to me. I don't want to be a childish wimp who needs her friends to lean on every second of the day. I want to be the person I always wanted to be when we were growing up, a unique person who doesn't care what others think of her, someone who can believe what people say and not having to worry about every single word she'd say. I want to be able to be the person that can believe what I feel and know what it is right away instead of worrying if it is real or not.' I said, tears burning in my eyes. I could hear, feel and see my heart beating, hear my breath in my head as if a hurricane was outside the window behind me. 'You don't have to hide to be her. You should be able to be happy just the way you are, but if you do change make sure you are changing for you because it is what you want, and not for someone else' Jane said, she gave me a small, warm smile and grabbed my hand. 'Thanks. Can you not tell anyone though? I don't want them to know just yet.' I said. 'Sure thing. Just promise me you won't hide forever but if you do change, change for yourself, no one else.' Jane replied and with that she left the room. I laid back on my bed staring at my ceiling thinking for who knows how long before I heard a knock at the door. I bolted upright, hit my head on the bed post and fell off the bed. I looked up to see Robert and burst out laughing. He smiled at me like I was the biggest weirdo in the world and he jumped onto my bed, he looked at me and my contagious laughter caught on to him. Robert pulled me up onto the bed and pulled me close. I got up and closed the door so it was locked 'Might as well have some privacy' I said shrugging, he pulled me back into his arms and pulled the covers over us. I laid my head and hand on his chest letting his heart beat fill my head. He grabbed my hand and our fingers locked together, I looked up at him to see his amazing blue eyes and brown shaggy hair falling over his face, I pushed his hair away from his eyes and he leaned in to kiss me, I leaned into the kiss and as our lips touched I forgot what I was thinking about before he came in. I pulled the covers over our heads, our eyes adjusted to the dark and we shifted just that little but closer to each other that made it seem like our problems had been taken away forever. He pushed the hair out of my eyes and laid his hand on my cheek, I placed my hand on his and let my eyes close. He pulled me closer than I had ever been to him before and hugged me, he head resting on my shoulder and neck, I hugged him back as he held me tight. He kissed my cheek before kissing my lips, I kissed him back wondering why he was doing this, he hadn't gone this far before. I didn't mind, to be homest I kind of liked it but he had never done this before and I didn't really know what it meant. 'I love you' he whispered as we kissed. 'I love you too' I thought, I knee he could hear me because he held me tighter. 'Whats wrong Hope, you seem distant' he thought, 'Nothings wrong. Don't worry' I replied. 'Something is wrong, I can feel it' 'Did Jane tell you?' I asked him, he stopped kissing me and looked at me shyly 'maybe.. She came out looking happy but distant, I asked her what was going on but she wouldn't tell me. I knew by the look in her eyes that something was bothering the both of you' He lifted me onto his chest and pulled me inti a warm, comforting hug, the kind of hug that made you feel like everything was going to be ok 'I just want you to be ok' He thought to me, he wrapped his arms around me, kissed my cheek and our heart beats started to beat in time against eachother. 'I am fine. You don't and shouldn't have to worry.' I thought to him 'I want to worry, its my job to worry' his voice said in my head. I felt tears fill my eyes, they burned in my eyes as they had done so many times before, but this time I couldn't do anything to stop it. I wasn't sad or upset, I was scared and relieved at the same time. Hot tears rolled down my face, I couldn't do anything to stop it, Robert wiped my tears away and pulled me close, I was laying beside him closer than ever. I was curled up next to him, our bodies creating a heart shape in the darkness under my blankets. I finally was able to stop the burning hot tears from running down my face, 'thats better, I can see your beautiful face now' Robert thought to me. I couldn't help but blush 'you are truely amazing. I love you, so much' I thought to him as we kissed, by heart racing at the thought of how long we had been together and how much I genuinly loved him. 'I love you to' he replied. I didn't know how we could communicate without actually talking but I knew that it was special.