Who we are

Chapter 13

Mina’s POV

Thank god all the events that unfolded were on Friday because I don’t think I would have been able to look anyone in the face for a couple of days. Everything hurt so much. I wanted to say so much but it felt like I was choking, all I felt was a raw burning sensation in the back of my throat. I cried so much, more than I’ve cried in months since the accident. Everything just came crashing down for me. I remembered every single moment of that crash and I hated it. I hate it because I lost my best friends. I hate it because it left me broken. I wanted to scream, I wanted to run and punch something. I wanted all the pain out, but there was nothing to do, it was all trapped in my head. I couldn’t fix all this pain with a bandage. I wanted nothing more than to just stop feeling all these damn emotions, it was too overwhelming. I promised I wouldn’t let it get this bad again, where I was so sad and quiet. Believe me I didn’t want to keep in down, I wanted to tell someone, but I couldn’t.

I stayed in my room for the most part of the weekend. My friends would text over and over again, but I couldn’t bring myself to answer them. Eventually, Dahyun told them I was too tired to answer. My sisters and mom tried to help, they did whatever they could think to cheer me up, but it didn’t work.

Saturday night my mom came to my room. She didn’t say anything, but she got in bed with me and hugged me. She knew there wasn’t much to do to help me, she knew what I was thinking.

When I saw Yerin, the past came like a tornado destroying whatever I rebuilt of myself. I couldn’t look at her, or think of her because the accident, Sinb and my dad go through my head. Why did she come back? Why did the accident happen? Why did Sinb have to die? Why did my dad leave without goodbye? The questions were all I thought about.

A week went by and I tried hard to act normal. I took my ADHD and depression meds every day, but it wasn’t much help. The nightmares got even worse and I was so tired. Every now and then I’d catch Yerin glancing over at me and it broke my heart each time. Chaeyoung tried to cheer me up, but it was no use. I hope this low goes by fast. Please go by fast, I don’t want to feel this way.

Chaeyoung’s POV

It kills me to see Mina unnie act so down. I hate not being able to see that uplifting gummy smile she always has or hear that cute giggle. I triedeverything to cheer her up, but it’s no use. But I’ve come with a plan because I’m not ready to give up on her at all. I asked her mom if I could come over later without telling Mina unnie. It’s supposed to be a surprise.

Around 6 I headed to her house and went through her backyard. I threw a rock at her window to get her attention (I know, cheesy, yup) before going up the latter I asked Nayeon unnie to get. She looked so shocked to see me coming up and opened her window.

“Uhmm Chaeyoung, what the heck are you doing?”

“Trying to see if you’ll watch the sunset with me on the top roof”

“…….you know how extremely dangerous that is right….?” Mina unnie asked.

“Come on Mina unnie, live a little and stop with the stalling. Let’s go up.”

She looked at me in utter disbelief before smirking and saying, “if I slip and fall and break my neck, it’s your fault you know. I’ll come back as a ghost and haunt your ass little cub.”

I glared at her,”ha ha ha, very funny.”

“Hey, I’ve already been close to death once, I don’t want to be close again okay. It hurt” she said as she followed me up.

Yay. That’s more of the Mina unnie I know. I’m glad she’s being sarcastic back with me, I missed it.

“Oh shut up, you’ll be fine.” I replied.

We laid side by side each other on the roof and stared at the sunset. It was so calming and being next to Mina unnie was amazing.

“Thank you for this. Thanks for being there and not pressuring me to say anything.” She says.

I just look over at her and stare at how beautiful she looks. I can’t keep my eyes off her. I have the urgency to kiss her, but I know that now isn’t the time.

“I’ll always be here, remember that.” I say.

We watch the sun go down and watch the sky turn dark blue. The stars are shinning so bright and it’s so beautiful. After a while we get down from the roof. We hug each other, but as a pull away Mina unnie hugs me a little tighter so I do too. We let go and say goodbye. She thanks me for everything before I leave. She waves at me as I drive out of her driveway and my heart almost stopped when she gave me a smile. It was the best thing to end the night with. I’m so happy that I got that beautiful smile back on her face.