FOUND

underneath

I did not choose you

you chose me

you plucked me from a field of blooming flowers, stunting the growth of my heart in the process

you placed me in a vase, filling it with poison all the while teaching me to drink it as water

I learned the taste just the same and never questioned why

I never questioned your controlling actions

I never questioned why you wouldn't let me leave my bed

I never questioned why you wrapped your hands around my lungs, breathing in every ounce of air you sucked from my soul

I never questioned you because you taught me not to

you showed me the consequences of questioning the unknown

you showed me the pain of unreasonable expectations being shattered by the trust we give

you gave me hope by opening the curtains, knowing damn well you would never let me go outside

you will never let me feel the sun against my skin, warming every inch of my broken heart

you are depression and you have claimed me

5/23/17