I Want You to Know

12 - This is How I'll Remember You

Thank you for raising the boy who became my first love and thank you for helping me survive losing him.

Thank you for loving me for everything that I did for your son.

Thank you for showing me that no one else matters. It didn't matter if they all thought I was bad for him.

Thank you for seeing how much I loved him and that my intentions were good.

Thank you even though I couldn't be what your son needed.

Thank you,

Even though I couldn't make your son happy. Even though I don't know what makes him happy.

Thank you,

Even though I know who I am, and even though I am not that girl.

Thank you,

Even though I held your son to higher expectations. Even though I fell in love with who I thought your son could be, not with who he is. Even though I asked him to be more for me. Even though he and I weren't meant to be.

You welcomed me with open arms. Thank you for loving me anyway.

Thank you for giving me the strength to face your son for the first time after he broke my heart. You said, I love you for all you have done for my son. Thank you. You said, focus on you. Thank you. You said, you don't know what the future holds.

You were right. I didn't.

And your words gave me the strength to find out.

Thank you.

a/n: Hi readers!! Thanks for reading this far. I hope you like what you see so far. It's not perfect - I know, but I'm working on it! This is one of the few pieces where I'm speaking to someone other than the boy who broke my heart. 

In this piece, This is How I'll Remember You, I am speaking to my ex's mother. I am outlining all of the things that I will remember her for because I want her to know what an impact she had on me and that I am thankful for her. I know it may be confusing...I'm working on clearing things up and making it fit better.