you never needed me.
you never did. i was a
temporary happiness
that you held onto
when loneliness
became your lover.
you never needed me.
i was just a filler that
you continued to play
with after you're bored.
(then you'll leave and
find something—maybe
someone better.)
but i needed you. i looked
for you all over the corners
of the world, across the
horizon that blurs my eyes,
and to the places that you
left me with your kiss.
i needed you, so i sit here,
writing this because i don't
know where you are. (you
can be here beside me, by
the door, outside my closed
windows. you are everywhere
at once, and i don't believe
in anything anymore.)
i needed you, but you didn't
need me. i guess i was always
the one chasing for you and
fell in love with your poison
on my lips.
