Forbidden Love (ON HOLD)

~21~

Soraya's POV

He was surprisingly silent for a while, his fingers tracing absent minded patterns on my back

After a few more moments spent just basking in each other's presence, he stopped his drawings and released a sigh.

"Raya?"

"Hmm?" I tightened my arms around him

"Why do you love me?"

My head jerked up to stare at him, completely shocked "what?"

His jaw twitched, his arms tightened around me and he looked away "I've caused you more pain than I've brought you joy from the very first day I met you. And frankly, it's the only thing I'm good at; hurting people. You should run away from me, as fast as you can and never look back"

I frowned up at him "I'm not going anywhere. I'm not going to run away from you, I'm not gonna run away from happiness"

He chuckled dryly at the last part "honey, you ran away from happiness the moment you approached me that day at the bar"

I glared at him, feeling somewhat irritated "where the hell is this coming from? Why are you acting like this all of a sudden?"

He shrugged "I've always been like this, petalo, you just never noticed"

"Well, stop it" I demanded "you're starting to annoy me"

He shook his head, giving me a dark look "you have no idea what I'm capable of. What I've done in the past and will still continue to do"

I shrugged, my gaze challenging "I might not know fully well what you're capable of, but I know you'd never hurt me on purpose, and that's all I need"

He pursed his lips, looking like he wanted to deny it but then thought against it and sighed instead "you really want to do this? Once you're in, there's no going out, dolcezza. I love you, and that's exactly why I have to convince you to leave"

"Why?" I asked "if you really wanted me to leave, you wouldn't have come over here to beg for forgiveness"

"I'm not good for you. But I'm selfish, sue me"

"I'm not going anywhere, Alex. So you can keep trying to shut me out or let me in, your choice, but I'm staying right here, where I belong"

He sighed "why'd you have to be so difficult? Fine. I can't promise you happiness and an easy life though, at least for now"

I held his face in my hands and pressed my lips against his. I pulled away after a few seconds "then so be it. Because any life with you in it, is totally worth the initial, temporary pain and misery"

~*~

"Honey I'm home!"

I rolled my eyes in mock annoyance as Daphne walked through the door, a huge animated smile on her face

"What took you so long?" I asked making space for her on the couch

She took off her running shoes and plopped down on the couch with a sigh "running helps me clear my head. And turns out, I had a lot on my mind to clear"

"So" she said, turning to face me "you're all smiles, what happened while I was gone?"

A small smile crept on my face as I remembered what happened barely minutes ago "I have been mended"

She raised an eyebrow "expatiate please"

"Alex came over. He apologised for being a jerk and all that shit"