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Acceptance

You walked out on me,
My one chance for a new start
For a better ending.
You threw everything away,
My one good beginning
For no reason.
You erased me from you life,
My life you left in shatters
For someone else?

You gave me so many excuses
I am not ready,
I don't know what I want,
Everything happened too fast,
I nodded and walked away.

You wanted to be friends,
So I didn't say a word.
I didn't shout.
I didn't scream.
I didn't cry.
I didn't mess things up between us.

Then,
People starting talking
Making up stories.
You blamed me,
You got angry,
You cried.
And you decided to erase me.
Like I never existed,
Like I never meant anything,
Like you didn't even care.

I let you do it,
I let you blame me,
I tried to explain my side but you didn't
Even
Listen

Even now,
I still hope that you'll come back,
Realise that you were wrong.
You told me,
That you wanted me.
Then you told me,
That you were drunk
And that it didn't mean anything.
But
Drunk words speak sober thought.
But
Your heart might belong to someone else
But
I shouldn't hope for you
But I will

I know this can't be the end,
I know that you can't mean this,
I know that there has to be something,
But I don't know what.
I don't know what to do.
I don't know what to say.

Every time I try,
Try to explain my feelings,
You push me aside
And live in your own misery.
I'm sorry.
I deserve this.
My chance to put my past mistakes to right,
Is gone.
Is over.
I just have to accept it.

I still hope though.