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So I

It's two am.
I made an excuse,
Pushed you away.
I knew what you wanted,
But I couldn't say no.
So I ran.

It's three am.
I look at my phone,
Disgusted at you.
I was weak,
I was wrong.
So I cried.

It's four am.
I'm staring at the floor,
Emptiness spreading.
Why did I ever,
Say yes.
So I thought.

It's seven in the morning.
I'm on the ground,
Lifeless.
I shouldn't have,
But I did.
So I.