Unforgiven ~ (Draco Malfoy x OC)

~Glimpses of Happines~

I think we were heading towards the Black Lake but I wasn't sure, since Draco was just leading the way, holding me by hand.

I was so lost in my thoughts, thinking of how I didn't feel guilty, or angry or sad...

'How can I feel like this?'

Suddenly Draco stopped walking and I bumped on him.

"Are you even listening?" He said, turning back to look at me, with a worried look.

"I-Im sorry..." I said looking him in the eyes.

''What were you saying?"

"You shouldn't let them bully you! You are not the kind of person they think you are...You must stand up for yourse-"

I looked away, a smirk quickly forming on my lips and he stopped talking and looked at me.

"I thought you'd talk about your French speaking skills" I commented in a comfortable tone, now looking at him directly.

He smirked and rolled his eyes, which looked almost black in the darkness of the evening.

"Who cares about that...What matters is that you shouldn't let them do what they want with y- "

"I know!!"I shouted, interrupting him.

He stopped talking and he looked at me.

"I just couldn't face her...the guilt I feel is way too much for me to stand up for myself..." I mumbled.

He grabbed my hand again and started walking. We didn't talk at all during our walk to the Black Lake and all I could hear was our footsteps on the withered grass every time our feet touched the ground.

We sat by the Black Lake like we always did and Draco turned to me with a smirk.

"I want to test something..." he said, looking at me with an excited look.

"What's all this excitement for?" I asked, confused.

"Possess me!" he said.

'What? Why is he asking me to possess him...That's only going to make things feel worse...'

"What?? No way...It's really hard for me"

"You've told me it's the easiest thing in the world, remember?"

I recalled the memory of us talking here, by the lake...

'I did indeed tell him that it was the easiest thing in the world to do...but I hate this power of mine...I feel guilty for the things I've done and I don't want to use it...'

"It is...but I can't Draco...I hate it"I said, looking him in the eyes.

"Why do you hate it...Its amazing!!!"he answered, excited.

"I used it to kill Draco...It's not amazing..."I shouted, sounding kind of desperate.

"But you didn't want to Alex...you didn't know what you were doing...you had no control over it..." he said and with his hand he put the hair that was in front of my eyes behind my ear.

I looked down...He was right...but that didn't take away the burden in my chest.

"Look at me" he said and I lifted my head to look him in the eyes.

'He's so damn beautiful' I thought.

"You have to accept yourself...Accept your powers and your past...Love yourself like I love you" he said with a soft voice.

'Love myself like he loves me....He loves me? Did he just?'

"Now..."he continued..."Possess me!"

I looked him in the eyes and nodded...

'I'm going to possess him'

***

A few moments later Draco still hadn't woken up.

He was laying on the grass with his head on my thighs.

His white blonde hair was spread on my black skirt and with my hands I would go through it.

He opened his eyes and I looked at him.

"What did you do?" He asked, not moving from my lap.

"Nothing really, just walked around a bit" I answered.

I refrained from mentioning the part that I layed on my own lap using his body.

'That would be embarrassing'

"Did you make me lay like this?" He asked with a faint smirk.

I didn't answer, I just nodded. He didn't answer either, he just laid there looking at me for a moment.

'Thank god it's dark and he can't see me blushing' I thought

"Do you feel guilty now?"he asked, breaking the silence.

"Not really.."I said looking at the lake.

"See? You can use it for good, without feeling guilty.. " he announced with a smile.

He looked like he wanted me to realize that I don't need to have regrets, or feel guilty.

He looked so proud of himself that I answered like he had planned...But I knew it was because of him being with me, that I felt sure and safe.

"It's not like that.." I said with a trembling voice.

His proud smile disappeared and its place took a curious smirk.

"It's because of you..." I said quietly.

He had closed his eyes and he was smiling.

"I am glad I have helped you" he said, with his eyes still closed.

"It's because you are with me that I don't feel guilt... When you leave, I can't say for sure I won't feel anything.. " I confessed.

"Then I won't ever leave" he said and got up from my lap and sat in front of me. I just looked at him startled.

'I wish this moment could last forever' I thought.

He looked back at me, looking as startled as I was. My heart was beating like crazy and I just felt happy to be alive. We both leaned closer and before I knew it we were kissing.

His kiss was slow but passionate.

He was holding me from my waist and he was pulling me towards him.

I put my hands around his neck and lost the world in our kiss.

'I wish this moment could last forever' I repeated in my head.

I could have never imagined that my life would include moments like this one. I thought I'd never deserve to feel happy again. I thought I'd have to punish myself for all eternity but I was wrong...

'Being loved is something so beautiful..'

We broke from the kiss and Draco looked at me.

"I felt it from the start...that you are special," he said.

"You know this will seem weird to everyone... right?" I asked hesitantly, thinking about what the Gryffindors would think of us.

I wanted to say so many things to him but that was all that I could spit out.

"I know...if my father hears about this, we're both dead" he said with a sad smile.

"But I want you to kno-" he started saying but a shout interrupted him.

"Alex?"

We both turned to look from where the voice was heard.

It was Hermione with Harry and Ron tagging along.

"It's the mudblood!" Said Draco and we both got up in a hurry.

"Go!" I shouted and Draco ran to the Slytherin common room looking back at me from time to time.

I walked towards the Gryffindors, hugged them and we all headed to the common room together.

'I hope they didn't see anything'