A Therian Journal

I.+*|Fear|*+.I

The one thing I love a lot is FEAR. Fear makes me so numb it's like i am not here anymore. I loose all my memories and emotions. It makes since as when i am in the middle of a fight i forget everything! I like to pretend also. I have to pretend for some people so they notice me. I fear that! I love fear as It can be driven on command.

Another thing i fear well.. about fear is that... due to the fact of "loosing emotions" from that i usually get ruthless. I try not to show it though. I get so frustrated that i literally change.

That stuff is a whole another story though!

I also fear talking to people. When ever someone "wants to talk" I have this though thinking "This will be bad!" I latterly walk or run away rejecting them all the time. I want to forget everyone from my school that i just left. I am changing schools for my next grade and i am so ready! My girlfriend currently hates me and you know how i fear conversations and fear makes me nub... yep... i am TERRIFIED! I don't want to break up.. but she want to I guess.... i just want to cry my self to death right now... but if no one else will pick me up I won't cry on the internet I will pick my self up! I hate being depressed! Another think i hate it sadness! And (something for a next thing)...)

I don't want to surround my self with people who do bad things and act depressed. Yes, i want to help people who are but if you keep saying you are "okay" then stop. You might as well go away from us all as you clearly don't want to heal. If you keep acting like everything is baaaad and depressing and you cut your self just STOP! Who said you HAD to be depressed who said you HAD to sad who said you HAD to cut your self who said you HAD to shut your self away from the world.. NO ONE EVER SAID THAT.... but only you. You are the one acting hurt and ye he all get hurt but get up. No one want to see you sad we want to see your smile! We want to help you so today we will be your therapists... your friends will be there for you! Talk to them and stop saying such things like "you won't understand!" or "you won't be able to handle me!" we are your friends and we are here to do that!

Now you have serious problems please go see a professional.

Remember don't make your self scared be comfortable.

Don't harm your self physically or mentally!

Stay calm and know... we are here for you...  and everyone will look out for each other!

Everything is okay :)

-Axus the wolf who is transforming <3