A Therian Journal

Everything reminds me of her.

Waking up in the morning isn't exciting as it was before.

At my old school when I woke up I was excited. Not for the drama, friends, lunch.... nope it was for one person. It was my Gf....

And, it's not like that anymore. I dread waking up. I go to school and I am alone, no one wants to be my friends, I try and try but fail.

I walk down the halls and my mind i clouded with depression and loneliness, but i look up seeing a Lilac flower, my eyes water a bit. It reminds me of her.

In the morning I flip through my drawing journal, I draw everyday there. I always flips through the picture I drew of her, my eyes water once again.

Now I sit on my floor typing this, my eyes...  crying now, Everyday I home I don't cry anymore because I'm alone, I cry because I miss her so much. The thought of her makes me cry. i hate crying but she bring me out.

She doesn't read my journal, I know that for sure so she won't know how much I think of her everyday.

I bet I hadn't even flashed once over her mind, but no matter what I still love her.

No one can ever make me stop thinking of her, not my depression, not my loneliness, not my problems, not my old friends who still text me, not my parents...

.. because I love her, I know what love is.... and she, she is my love till I die.