A Therian Journal

Why do I lie to my self

I pretend I am happy.

I pretend everything is okay!

Everything is falling apart so, why am I still lying to my self.

People are changing, animals are dying, People I loved are gone!

Why am I so BLIND?!

Why do I cover up my rage?

Why do I let people push me over?

Why do I have to match people or pretend  I am joking?!

Why am I not excepted as ME?

My lover does not even know ME!

I have been acting someone I am not.

I need you to listen to be if someone I know is reading this.

I'm sorry...

... I might never get the courage to talk to you ever again.

Because, I am broken.

I am left alone.

And if you know me then you are one of the reasons why I never wanted to be real self.

So, I guess this goodbye to the fake me.

everything you think you know about me as a person is fake.

my oc's, how I spoke, how I broke down was to hide everything.

If you know me in real life you'd most likely know who Papooche is.

My oc who was weird, messed up in the head, and was beloved.

She represented my mind at the time.

She was all the craziness and fake me I had.

And if you still want me.

Well, we better have a long talk with the real me.

Bye.