6 Years Bellarke

Pain

Pain. That's all Clarke felt nowadays. She beat herself up constantly for loving Bellamy, for not trying harder to contact him, for not staying with them. But she felt pain because of him, he had sex with Echo less than a year after Clarke's "death". How could he do that? The only person she had ever thought of since they had left was Bellamy. It was always Bellamy. Until Madi, now she had another person to take care of, she didn't have as much time on her hands to think about him. Except once a day, every day she radioed him. That's what she had tried to stop Madi from saying. She had been afraid of her telling Bellamy about her radio calls, and she didn't need to put more weight on his shoulders. What was she supposed to do when the man she loved was in love with someone else?
It had been 2 weeks and they still hadn't radioed, maybe 6 years without her they just didn't care about her anymore. Thinking someone was dead for that long could do that to a person. Madi was on her usual hunting trip and wouldn't be back for a couple hours, so she let her tears start to fall and she curled herself into a ball and let it all out.
4 hours later
"Clarke! Clarke!!"
Clarke wasn't used to someone screaming her name and she shot herself up out of bed.
"Clarke help!"
This got Clarke moving. She ran into the living room of Allie's house Madi and her had found. Standing in the middle was none other than John Murphy.
"I found your daughter Clarke, she is stuck in a bear trap and I couldn't get her out so I came to find you, Bellamy is with her so I know where she is, come on I'll take you to her."
Clarke and Murphy sprinted as fast as they could to where Madi was and once they got there Madi was laying in a pool of blood. Clarke got on her knees and checked for a pulse. It was faint, Clarke couldn't save her.
"Madi hey can you hear me?"
"Clarke," Madi's voice was just a whisper and it made Clarke break down, her only family left was about to die.
"Don't die on me Madi you are all I have left."
She could feel Murphy and Bellamy's pitiful stares on her back but right now she didn't care.
"Clarke come here." Madi motioned for Clarke to put her face lower so Madi could whisper in her ear.
"Forgive him. He thought you were dead Clarke he loves you."
"Madi, I don't know if I can. And I sure as hell know he doesn't love me."
"Yes he does. Clarke don't throw your life away, he needs you just as much as you need him. I can see it on his face when he was sitting here with me. He feels guilty he couldn't save me, just as he couldn't save you years ago."
"Madi what am I going to do without you?" Clarke looked down at the small girl in her arms, awaiting a reply, a reply that never came.
"Madi please no, you can't be dead." She felt someone put their hand on her shoulder and she turned around to see Bellamy. This time she didn't pull away from him she reached out for an embrace.
"I'm sorry I couldn't save her Clarke this is all my fault."
Instead of replying to him she grasped onto his hand and squeezed it for reassurance that it was not his fault.
"She really loved you Clarke, she told me how you found her and were like a mom to her."
"She was the daughter I never knew I wanted or needed. After you guys left she gave me life, she made me want to survive to see you guys again."
"I know Clarke. She told me about your radio calls, I'm sorry I never got them, maybe things would be different right now."
"Yeah.Maybe."