6 Years Bellarke

Life's Passing

3 weeks after Madi's Death
It had been 3 weeks since Clarke's entire life had come crashing down. First she had found out the love of her life had a child with a woman who she had once considered her enemy. And then the only person who she had considered her only family had died in her arms.
After trying to live alone in Allie's house she had decided it held too many memories, of Madi, of radio calls that hadn't been received, and of a lost hope for love. One she knew was no longer reciprocated.
When she had decided to move out she had made a list of places she could go.
1.The Ark although it reminded her of her mother who she did not know whether she was alive or dead
2.Polis where she could continue trying to get the bunker open. But yet again memories of a lost love.
3. The Drop ship it may be filled with memories of her and Bellamy, but not all were good and maybe that was what she needed to move on.
Once Clarke knew where she wanted to go she had stopped by where the others were staying and said her goodbyes.
First to Raven, "Raven listen to me, I know you took up a leadership roll up on the Ark and I need you to continue leading. They are going to need someone strong like you to help them through the dangers on the ground again."
"Ok Clarke. But listen to me, Bellamy isn't a complete lost cause, he never loved Echo. He only stays with her for Augustus. Every night he went to your cell on the Ark and cried for you. Just don't lose hope you may have lost Madi but you didn't lose your entire family, we are still here."
She hugged Raven and said thank you than moved onto the next goodbye. Murphy.
"Thank you Murphy. You gave me a chance to say goodbye to Madi, and for that I will always be grateful. I don't know if you remember but 6 years ago I started to care for you as a close friend, and I just want to remind you nothing has changed. I am going to miss you John Murphy."
"Take care of yourself Princess. I never lost hope, I knew you couldn't die and just leave us alone. You are too stubborn for that, you gave me another chance when no one else wanted too and it almost killed you. I never forgot what you did for me and I hope you never forget what you did for us. Keep your chin up everyone her is your family never forget that."
Clarke hadn't expected something so beautiful from Murphy so she gave him a kiss on the cheek and squeezed him into a hug.
"Who knew six years would turn you into such a softie Murphy?"
She then went on a search for Monty and Harper. She found Monty first working on something on a computer.
"Hey Monty did you miss me?" He jumped up and a huge smile covered his face.
"Clarke, I missed you so much! Everyone did, I know how much you must be hurting I felt the same way when Jasper died. Just know it gets better. And if you ever need anything," he handed her a device that looked like a walkie talkie," just give me a call and I will be there."
"Thank you so much Monty. I will. Sorry I hadn't gotten the chance to see you till now."
"It's ok I get it. With everything going on with Bellamy I know it is a lot to handle. But just to let you know I've been hoping you guys would end up together since he caught you when we were trying to save Jasper."
"And that's the moment I fell in love with him. Thank you Monty I'll miss you." She gave him a slight hug and he waved his walkie talkie letting her know to call him. And she walked out to find Harper. She found her rubbing her stomach in soft circles. Was she pregnant?
"Hello Harper." Harper quickly pulled her hand off her stomach and tried to act natural.
"Hello Clarke. I missed you."
"Harper are you pregnant?" She tried to read Harper's facial expressions and saw a tinge of guilt tweak the ends of her eyes.
"Yes. What do you think Monty is going to say? Is he going to leave me for Raven. I can't handle that."
"He isn't going to leave you Harper he loves you. He wouldn't just abandon you for someone else."
"Thank you Clarke. Monty gave you the walkie?"
"Yes and if you need anything I'll come right back here and help you ok?" Harper started to cry, "Thank you Clarke. I never lost hope and you shouldn't either."
Clarke gave her a slight smile and stood up "Now I've got to go slay the beast."
"I'm not that bad am I Princess?" The shock on Clarke's face was evident as she turned around and came face to face with Bellamy, who had a sad look on his face but wore a small smirk.
"I'll leave and give you two a alone." Harper said it with a small smile and walked out.
A moment of awkward silence stretched between Bellamy and Clarke before Bellamy came and sat down next to her.
"When you said that Monty would never abandon her because he loved her... Do you think I did that to you?"
"A little Bell. You may never have known it but I loved you. All hope I had for a good life was put into your hands. I called you every single day for 6 years and 7 days Bellamy. And it only took a couple months for you to sleep with someone else. And you may have thought I was dead but I thought you could have been too. I never mourned, I never allowed myself to Bell. Because once I did I would be mourning the last piece of humanity and love I had left. And I couldn't do that to Madi." She hadn't allowed herself to look up at Bellamy during her rant, but she needed to now. She had expected guilt but not the pure heartbroken face Bellamy was wearing now.
"I'm such a god damn idiot Clarke. You are my heart. Remember I'm the heart and you are the brain, that isn't true. When I left you behind I lost my mind. I couldn't survive without you. I may inspire them but you inspire me Clarke. And I no longer had inspiration, so I turned to my old ways. I was broken and needed some reassurance that I wasn't completely lost. So I slept with Echo, and I regret it everyday of my life, because now I have another life I have to be responsible for. Clarke I need you. Please stay with us. With me."

"Bellamy you have Augustus now. You trusted me with your heart once and I walked away. I trusted you with my heart and you slept with Echo. Maybe we just aren't meant to be Bellamy. I feel cold and empty, I think I am officially Wanheda. Remember I am become destroyer of worlds. I destroy everything I touch. You have a good life without me here, and I am not going to ruin it. Goodbye Bellamy."
"Clar...." Before she could hear what it was he had to say she had run out of the ship and into the rover.
She felt the last bit of humanity leave her. She was on her own now and she needed to deal with it.
"I am Wanheda destroyer of worlds."