Tyler got josh back home
He crawled through the window because the door was locked
"Will you be alright"
"I'm fine tyler"
"It'll get better"
"Stay alive josh"
And with a salute he left
Stay alive
Stay alive
Josh said to himself
The incident
Josh can't get it out of his head
He had pushed it aside for too long
He had to think
It was fall
Josh picked up ryan
It was cold
The coldest day in fall so far
Ryan was quiet like josh
But he had talent
He had a reason to be here
He had a mission to accomplish
But he had problems
Real ones
Josh tried to help but the problems were too much for him
... and for ryan
Josh though about it
There were so many signs
He ignored them
He
Forgot
He forgot them
Ryan had all these beautiful poems
They were stories
They made you vulnerable
Weak almost
Josh loved them
But ryan stopped writing
All of his natural behavior disappeared
It became a distant memory
Cause and effect
You ignore you forget
They stop caring
They stop caring
They let their selves go
They let their selves go
They die
Just like ryan
Just like many people
Josh had his own problems
So he forgot about Ryan's
But ryan never forgot about Josh's
That's why josh is still alive and ryan is dead
Because ryan cared
Ryan and josh stopped talking stopped caring
Until winter
Josh ran into ryan at the cvs
Of all places
Josh felt warm
Not artificial warmth
Real true warmth with ryan
He loved Ryan
Like he loved tyler
They went back to their old ways
Best friends
Sort of happy
Josh and Ryan were driving
The car stopped
No more gas
So they went to a little cafe they saw to ask for the nearest gas station
They were hungry so they decided to eat
Josh was in love
With ryan
But ryan was dead inside
He didn't have the capacity to love
Only to hate
Himself
Not others
Not josh
So that's where it went downhill
The gas station was too far and it was too dark outside to walk so they stayed in the car for the night
They were freezing so they huddled together
They were close feeling each other's warmth
And josh couldn't hold it any more
He looked ryan in the eyes
And kissed him
The most passionate josh had ever felt
He was giving ryan his love
Ryan kissed back and they stayed like that
A simple kiss went out of hand
Ryan thought the kiss was it but there was more
Cause and effect
You hold feelings in
They come out stronger than ever
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Truce (joshler)
FanfictionNever forget don't ignore. Cause and effect. You can't go back in time. Josh is broken. Because of the incident. He has tyler now but he can't forget the incident. He is only 'fine' when he's in his special place with Tyler
