Sometimes These Cuts Are so much deeper than they seem

part 3

not the best chapter but I hope you like it. :)

you've listened to the band practice every day after school for the rest of the week and you found out that mickey lives less than a block away from you so he drops you off after they finish practicing.

Karas p.o.v

today after midnight dropped me off I was surprised to see my mom at home.

"who dropped you off?" she asks.

"Mickey. He's my friend."

"is that who's house you were at?"

"no I was at jesses house."

"how many guys were you with."

"four. There in a band. I was listening to them play. Goodnight mom."

I run upstairs and shut the door. I listen to the CD Adam gave to me of the band playing. I felt happy around them. They made me feel special and beautiful.

After the CD finishes playing, I lay down and see your razor on the table. You get the urge to cut but then I think about Adam, Jesse, Mickey and Ryan. Finally I'm special to someone. I finally MEAN something. I think. I take the razor in my hand and throw it away. I'm worth something. finally!

Adams p.o.v.

All alone in my room thinkn' of you at a rate that is truly alarming. I sing. "god I miss her already. she's so beautiful!" I say, "I really wanna see her. Wait! She lives like a block away from Mickey!" I call mickey and ask him if I can come over.

I get there 10 minutes later.

"Where does Kara live?" I ask as soon as he opens the door.

"down there. The white two story house. why?" he says.

"thank you!" I run down the street to her house and knock on her door. an older woman answers.

"hi I'm Adam, Karas friend from school. is she home?"

"yeah. she's upstairs. KARA!" she says. kara runs downstairs in a tank top and shorts. Her legs were scared.

"yeah?" she says.

"this kids hear to see you."

"oh. hi Adam"

"you guys have a project for school or something?"

"um yeah come on Adam." I run upstairs after her and shut the door as soon as we get into her room and I throw against the wall. I kiss her roughly.

"Adam! what are you doing!" she says and pushes me away.

"I'm sorry. I just missed you."

"I saw you an hour ago!"

"I know. but I just couldn't stop thinking about you. I was in the shower and I thought of you. I was laying in bed and I thought about you. Kara I love you!"

"Adam no you don't!"

"yes I do!"

"Adam you don't."

"fine you don't believe but I do!"

"Ok I think you should go."

"can I stay here? Please?"

"I guess."

"thank you because I'm really horny."

"Adam!"

"I'm just kidding. But I am really horny."

"shut up."

"you wanna fix that for me?" I whisper in her ear. she pushes me away.

Jesses p.o.v

I went over to Karas house. He mom answers the door.

"you hear to see Kara?"

"yeah."

"she's upstairs."

"thank you." I run upstairs and open her door.  Shes up against the wall with Adam looking at her seductively.

"Hi Jesse." she says.

"we're kinda in the middle of something so-" Adam says.

"no where not. Adam get off."

"come on. I know you want to." she tries to push him off.

"Adam leave her alone." I say.  He steps back.

"what are doing here?" she asks me.

"I just wanted to see you. I couldn't stop thinking about you kara."

"that's why Adam is here."

"Jesse can you leave?" Adam says.

"why?" he walks over to me.

"please leave I really want Kara right now."

"I'm not leaving."

"actually can you both leave I kinda wanna be alone." kara says.

"right after you give me what I want." Adam says

"what the fuck!" she yells.

"I mean I'm not expecting to have sex but after we made out I've just wanted more."

"no!"

"but you let jesse finger you!"

"you told him!" she yells at me.

"I'm sorry kara."

"both of you! leave!" she yells.

I turn around and leave.

Karas p.o.v

Adam wouldn't leave I could smell alcohol on his breath.  I don't know why he was drinking but he did and now he wouldn't leave me alone.

"Adam get off of me!" I yell. He has me pinned to the bed. he slides my shorts off. Jesse hears me yelling and runs back into my room.

"Adam get off of her!" he yells and pushes him off. I hug Jesse.

"thank you." I say.

Adam gets up and leaves.

"is he always like this?"

"no. He's never like this. I don't know what's with him. Maybe he's going through some stuff with his parents again.

"oh." I liked being in Jesses arms. I felt safe and happy. "I wanna be with you Jesse. I really like you."  I say

"oh my god!" he kisses me, "I'm so happy!"

"you wanna stay here tonight?" I say

"of course."

we lay together in bed for a while.

"mybe I better sleep somewhere else." he says

"why?"

"because I'm extremely turned on right now." you laugh

"I can fix that."

"you can? Whatcha goona do?"

"what do you want me to do?"

"God. your usually not this slutty."

"you just have that effect on me."

"I do? I never have that effect on girls."

"just come here." I hold him closer.