sidenote: i lowkey dont really know what this chapter really is idk it's their first conversation and it's just them getting to know each other i guess you can say
*still josh's pov lmao*
Why am I still internally screaming.
tylerrjoseph: before we start talking, i have a very important inquiry
joshuadun: ask away sir
joshuadun: shit that isn't supposed to sound mildly kinky fuck
tylerrjoseph: what are your thoughts on "xD" and do you use it? also, we both know you were intending that.
joshuadun: lol idk rawr xD xP im so random too!!!
joshuadun: that physically hurt me typing that out but if you somehow still don't get what im saying, no, i do not use "xD"
'''''''quick a/n: 1) im just gonna start doing "j" for josh and "t" for tyler &&& the xD thing isn't meant to offend anyone sorry if you were uh oops''''''
t: oh thank god
t: did you purposely not respond to /my/ response to ur mildly seductive comment
j: i forgot to and no i was not intending that to come off that way stfu
t: make me
j: are you always this much of a fuckboy
t: no actually im quite reserved but you make me feel so many emotions at once and its hard for me to truly convey how at feel at times so idrk sometimes it comes out sexual then other times it sounds like im deep in depression so
j: oh dear that whole reply was a roller coaster of emotions
j: but i hope that's a good thing
t: i mean i suppose. i would get really deep & physiological but it's nearly 4am and i dont think you want to hear deep shit right now
j: it doesn't really bother me all that much if im being honest. i, more than not, relate to everything in that matter and i know how relieving it really is to sometimes just vent trapped feelings. you never know, the receiving side of it can possibly use it as an outlet- the words i mean
t: shit i wasn't prepared for that ohmy thats heavy
j: trust me, that isn't heavy compared to the shit behind my eyelids. it's islands of violence back there.
Wait why did I say that oh my god. I bet I made hi uncomfortable that is too much. I barely know this guy and im already bitching about my anxiety.
j: fuck sorry that was a bit much sorry um. i opened up to fast sorry to make you uncomfortable ill go
I was about to press the leave conversation button but right before I did I noticed a notification coming from the top of my screen
I read it in parts while still on the screen to leave the conversation as it fell from the top of my screen
tylerrjoseph: no please dont go i thoroughly enjoy your company. you make me feel so comfortable to say whatever and that's so rare considering im "famous" (i hate using that word and just calling myself that in general cause it carries just an overall bad connotation) and i have to watch everything i god damn say but your different. you make me feel so at home and just generally cozy and i haven't felt this way in months, since i seen my family and im so grateful for that. but regarding your reply, dont worry i can handle dark topics like that and that did not make me uncomfortable at all shut up. in fact it made me even more comfortable to talk about such stigmatized topics such as mental health and beyond. look, i have my demons as well but i have grown to accept them since i sure cant rid of 'em aha but thats for a different time. but please do not worry about talking about such topics with me. i know we technically just met roughly 10 minutes ago but i feel so much more encompassed in acknowledgement and just all around care than i have ever felt with people ive known for years. youre different josh. a good type of different. i usually never get this close to "fans" (i hate using that word as well bc it holds such a negative connotation also in some circumstances, such as this one) but youre an exception. the best exception.
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