Last breath

- Chapter five -

   "So tell me. What do you do for living Nathan?" I asked while eating into my pasta.
   "Well, I do what you do. I design. I'm an interior designer." He looks up and smiles. This one. As I can tell. Was real.
   "I never thought you would be an interior designer. Why do you like it so much?" I was curious as to why he would choose this job out of all. I was also curious as to who I chose to date.
    "Well, my mother always loved to keep her house neat and looking nice. She always said that your environment affects your spirt. If your living space is unorganized. You feel not put together. Where, when you walk into a room where it's matched and is organized. You will feel more. Let's say. Organized and it helps make you feel stabled." He continued, " I've chosen interior designing to help people feel put together in their new home. Everyone moves for a new start. I want to help make their start good. A house is a new story to be told and I personally feel like. The setting should be well put together." He was passionate. I'm assuming his mother was passionate with it too. I looked at Jenn. She was eating, but she was bothered. Nathan looked at what I was looking at. He grabbed her and put her on his lap. "Hey hun, what's wrong?" He asked her with care. That alone made me feel safer with him. He cared. "I miss mommy and daddy. I never got to know them well bub. You have all these great memories and I only have a picture of them." She started crying in his chest. "I love you but I wish I knew who raised you." He hugged her and he had tears that were being held back. These two have been through a lot. He was a teenage boy taking care of his little sister. He wasn't parting. He was mature. That takes a lot. I got up from my seat and sat next to Nathan. I just met this boy three days ago. Yes, we are moving fast in this relationship. But it feels as if I've known him for years. I don't know his story but from just how comfortable I am with him. I know it'll be okay. I sit down next to Nathan and grab Jenn and sit her down on me and I let Nathan lean his head in my shoulder and I hug Jenn. "Hey Jenny" she looks up and hugs me harder. " I know you wish you knew your parents. I understand that it's hard. It's hard on your brother too. But listen to me. They are seeing you from above and I bet they are so proud of the both of you. They will be so happy to see you grow up into a beautiful young lady. So let's finish this dinner for your parents. They are always with you." I tap her heart. "In there." I hug her. Nathan looked at me. With joy.
    We finished our dinner and headed to the car. "Hey Jenny can you go to the car. We'll we there shortly. I just wanna talk to Amanda." Nathan says to Jenn.
  "Okay!" And she walks to the car and jumps into the back seat.
    After the door was closed Nathan pulled me into a hug. I started crying. In the longest time. I've needed a hug from someone that would make me feel better. A hug that made my heart feel warm again. After so long if isolating myself from my mother and father and the world alone. I needed a hug. A hug like his. I hugged him back. "Thank you so much for doing what you did." He said after pulling away from our hug. "Trust me. I know how it feels to lose someone you love. You work so hard to give the best for Jenn. She deserves to know that her parents are proud. They're proud of you too" I say smiling.
    "I hope they are. Parenting is so hard." He laughs. "Let's head home." He wraps his arm around me and we head to the car.
    "9:46pm" Jenn is passed out. "I guess all that shopping made her tired." He says while driving. "I guess it did. She has an amazing personality. She reminds me of my best friend Elizabeth. Jenn is always ready to talk to someone and it's a charm of hers. Be careful with the boys she's about to attract Nathan." I laugh pointing at him.
    "Trust me. Every boy she dates is getting questions and quizzes thrown at him left and right." He replies
    "If you don't mind me asking. What did happen to your parents?" This was a question I've wondered from the start. It was also a question I was afraid to ask and if he's not ready to talk about it. I understand. But, what was this kid doing taking care of an 8 year old at the age of 19?  He like his lips and opens his mouth.
    "Um, they passed away a couple years ago. I took Jenn and took care of her. She was my best friend. I was hers." He said. He was hurt. I felt bad for making him relive the memory of what ever did happen. I decided to change the subject.
   "I'm sorry to hear. I'm glad you guys are doing much better! You're doing great just know that. Thank you for my journal and my rose. I love them." We approach my apartment. He opens my car door for me. He hugs me once again. "Thank you for saying yes. Jenn absolutely loves you. Believe it or not. She wanted me to ask you out. I'm happy I did." He kisses me on my forehead. I smile. I open the door to kiss Jenn goodbye. She hugged me while being asleep and it made me smile even more. "Sweet dreams princess." I say. Then, Nathan walks me to my apartment. "Thank you for tonight Nathan. It's not much of a babysitting job when you take me out for dinner." I say.
    "It's not a job when you won't allow me to pay you. Think of it as coming over my apartment everyday to hang out." He said smiling.
     "I love the company." I smile back ," goodnight."
    "Goodnight." And that's where the conversation ended.
     Tonight was a night that made me feel warm. I generally felt like the world was on my side tonight. It wasn't a disappointment. It wasn't something I wish I could change. It was something worth writing. So I open my new journal made for Nathan and i's adventures and began writing.

This chapter is dedicated to Cameron p. I updated as a little gift for your birthday. I hope you enjoy tonight's read. Happy birthday love. <3