Out Of Reach (Kacchan x Fem! Deku BNHA)

Chapter XXV: Not Ment

Those scars weren't just anything, they were bound not to heal through a type of poison. Recovery girl said herself, that it was almost imposible to treat them, using her quirk partially then using medicines instead.

I shut my eyes in frustration as a pain reliever or a anesthesia wouldn't even affect her at all. She grab unto me, her hand clutching over the back of my shirt, face burried over my chest as she screamed in cried during the treatment, calling my name repeatetively, begging for everything to stop.

Most of my classmates back then had decided to leave, not liking what they were seeing anymore, yet it did not stop them from hearing.

I stayed still, quite horrofied by the fact that this was all painful yet she acted like they were nothing. If anyone was to stay with her, it should have been me.... I should have been there, should have protected her, should have save her yet I wasn't.

It was my entire fault, although the guilt was too much to deal, I deserves to feel it.

I wasn't able to stop myself from tracing my fingers over the carved word on her back, I heard a groan once again retrieving my hands back over her head, stroking her hair gently.

Most of the scars were now gone as if they weren't there, the burns over her skin has started to fade as what's left over her arms were violent purple marks. Yet still, a shallow scar it may be by now, the word 'mine' was still there.

I'm going to murder whoever wrote that.

"K-kacchan..." She sobbed her hand, clawing unto my clothes far more tightly as I stared back at recovery girl. She merely nodded, before standing up.

"Yeah, it's all over now." I assured.

I'll make sure everything will be over.

~

"So what happened?" Shinsuo asked her after she woke up. She glared at him.

"I hate you." Was her irrelevant response earning a chuckle from the bluenette.

"Just answer the damn question."

"Is it obvious? I got captured and tortured! Why do you have to ask?

"We're wondering how since you're like a monster that no one can stop." She pouted looking away.

"Paralyzation quirk, Shigaraki is the second user of All for One now, so he can take quirks and make it his." She explained, so that's how she got captured.

"As you know, espers power depends on the negativity of life, however it cannot deal with confusion, the power couldn't concentrate another factor is an headache. They found out about that, and used a quirk that shows illusions to me... Terrible illusions." She gazed into Shinsuo's eyes now.

"Once in a while during those three months, I'd feel a terrible head ache followed by slashes and burns across my skin. It's either Shigaraki himself doing it, Hideki or Dabi." She explained, her face remained straight unlike how scared she was earlier.

"Who wrote the word mine then?" Exactly my question.

"Jealous?" She smirk as Shinsuo's face burned red.

"What if I am?"

"Do be reminded that you have no right to be."

"Oh shut up."

"I don't really remember, probably Hideki, he likes cutting girls he likes saying he likes girls all tattered and covered with blood." That sent shivers through out my spines. What the fuck?

"And he likes you?"

"Obcessed even, I can't even count how many times he attempted to kiss me or anything similar to that."

"The illusions... What did they show you?" I uttered this time, remembering, how she was thrashing around her bed during her sleep, begging to something I cannot see. Shaking and scared.

"The reason why you hadn't sleep because those illusions haunt you... What are they?" I added, determined to find the answer as she stared at me straight in the eye.

Please...

Please...

Don't hurt him,

Anything but him... Please.

"Is it Kazuki?" I asked as she glance at Shinsuo for a while.

"Not like I have a chooce." She look away, her face burning red.

"You." He responded as it took me a while to figure out what she just uttered.

"What?"

"You, always been you, each illusion was you eithet dying or getting tortured... They didn't know about Kazuki so it was imposible for them to use him to mentally torture me." My face burned red, jaws falling as hers turned almost as red as her eyes.

"Why me?!"

"If my parents were alive maybe it would be them, but they probably concluded that you're the one person important to me than anything else." She explained herself.

"And I wouldn't be actually be able to deny that." Her face was now as red as a rose. The girls squealed.

I'm so happy right now!

"Can I ask then what do you think of me...?" The jealousy, envy, insicurity pushed me to ask this. I needed her respond more than ever as our eyes met, I was pleading for her answers as she bit her lower lip.

I was thankful Four eye since he told the rest to leave us alone for a couple of seconds.

"It's like a family." She started off.

"It felt like, even without you by my side, even if I only know that you exist somewhere eases me... You're very important, I told you on your birthday remember?" Okay, I'm trying to stop from grinning right now.

"I know you feel the same but I want you to forget it." That left me frozen.

"Why would I?"

"Good God, Katsuki, you're a hero, hands meant to save while mine is stained with blood." She said like it's a very obvious fact.

"I'm a villain."

"You're not..."

"I am! And that will stay that way! It won't change no matter what I do!" She yelled, standing up, her red eyes turning emerald as they were starting to gleam with tears.

"I killed them! I didn'want to, a part of me may rejoice their death but I didn't want to! I dreamed of being a hero! To stand alongside with you, to be always with you! But that's imposible now..." She turbed her back on me as I look away, remembering those carved words over her back.

"It's imposible... It's just imposible Kacchan... I know you'll refuse to understand but please...." Kazuki will be very dissapointed of me...

If she's avoiding me, I could never make her happy.