Vipers Posion: Toxic Romance; Book 2

Chapter 37: Sexual Test Run

M.S.'s POV
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This day has not ended yet and I'm still laying in the bed with Sakura.... who is currently trying to get a feel of what sex will be like. By sitting on my crotch while I have a boner..... she... uh... doesn't know about the boner... "are you done yet--" "shush I'm thinking...." she said as she placed her hands on my stomach. I smiled. Silly girl... crossing my arms behind my head, I closed my eyes. I felt her move a little to get more comfortable, but was soon interrupted by her squeaking loudly. "M.S.!!!" I opened my eyes and looked at her. "Yeah?" "Something poked me!!!! I think I may have left a sewing needling or something in the sheets!!!" "Are you bleeding?" "No!" "Where did it poke you?" She pointed to her thigh. "Ohhhh... it's fine... your fine...~" I smiled seductively. She blushed and nodded. "Okay..." looking back down at my stomach, she shifted to her place again. I laid my head back and closed my eyes. "Saki, what does this have to prove?" "Everything!! I don't like this position.." she got off as I raised up and pushed her onto hands and knees, and got on my hands and knees on her back, and entwined my fingers with hers. I rested my chin on her shoulder and kissed her neck. She blushed. "I like this position..." I smirked. "I bet you do~" "what do you mean?" "You like it when I dominate you... you like being controlled...~" "M.S...stop it..." she moaned Softly. "Oh, but why? You like this~ I know you do~" I whispered as she blushed deeper, kissing her jaw line, I nipped her neck gently, she giggled and rolled over underneath me, I kissed her lips briefly and closed my teeth around her bottom lip, tugging on it gently, I smirked as she giggled, letting go, I sucked on her collar bones, licking them lightly, I then raised up her shirt and slid my head under, pressing my lips against her left breast, I sucked on it roughly, she laughed loudly and moaned softly, holding my head through her shirt, wrapping her legs around me, she clung to my body as I kissed and massaged her breasts gently, squeezing her right breast in the palm of my hand, I pressed my fingers into her soft skin, I then bit her breast roughly as she jumped and squeaked. "M.S.!!!" I looked up. "Yes?" "That hurt!!" "Oh, but you were moaning, you liked it!" "No! That hurt!!!" I bent down and kissed the place I bit, little teeth marks embedded in her skin showed proof that I bit her, I kissed it again then looked up at her, "I sorry, dey were just wittle wuv bites!!" She giggled and kissed my forehead. "You can give me love bites if you want!" She blushed deeper and looked
at me questionably. "Why?" "Just to be playful!!" She nodded. I then got off of her and fell backwards on the bed. I picked up my phone and looked at the time.... half the day gone... but used in a good way... I smiled. Sakura climbed up beside me, wrapping her arms around my abdomen, she entwined her right leg with my right leg, smiling brightly, she buried her face in my shirt, my stomach then growled loudly. I smiled and chuckled. "Anyone else hungry?" Sakura looked up at me and smiled. "There's some food in the fridge... me, Jasp, Scarlet, and Aleah went to the nearest grocery store we could find here and filled up our fridges... so.... have at it..." I kissed her head and rolled off the bed, stretching, I yawned and bent down to look in the fridge. I looked around as Sakura grabbed the TV remote off the nightstand and flipped the TV on, changing the channels to something she liked, I stood up with a wine cooler, Strawberry and lime flavored, then moved to the little cabinets there was over the counter top. Digging through those, I found some Doritos. Smiling I opened the bag and flopped back down on the bed. I laid the bag and drink down for a moment, and shifted to lay beside her, she cuddled closer to me and wrapped her arms around me again, facing the TV. I opened the can and took a sip as she sniffed the air. "What smells so sweet?" "This.." I said as I took another drink. She looked at me, than the drink. "Don't worry it won't get me drunk that fast. I'd have to drink about.... twenty of these... probably more... but I swear... it a not gonna get me drunk as soon as I drink it." Sakura glared at me. I bent down to kiss her lips briefly, but as I pulled away, she pulled me back to her, I shrugged and swiped my tongue across her lips, which caused her to open her mouth letting my tongue in. The flavor of strawberries and alcohol on my tongue, I fought with Sakura, who put up a pretty good fight probably just wanting to taste the whine cooler, she then pushed away slowly after two or three more short kisses, and a few licks to my lips, she turned and looked at the TV. "What are we watching?" I asked as I placed a chip in my mouth. She shrugged. "I don't know... some.... show..." I smiled. "Well... its on TLC... so....." "well... I guess we're watching honey boo boo." I said jokingly.... I'd never watch that show again.. she giggled. "Oh, it's that weird obsessions or... habits or whatever it's called... you know... like... when that woman drank air freshener?" I cringed and shivered. "Oh my god that was fucking disgusting..." I ate another chip. "Says the girl that eats human flesh!" I shushed her. "Don't say it out loud!! The FBI will tackle us!!" I joked. She giggled and hugged me. "Your my girl..." "what?" She blushed lightly. "My girl... my one and only..." she reached up and
kissed my nose. "Its true!! You are! I want to spend the rest of my life with you~ why do you think I gave you this ring and not anyone else?" I grabbed her hand and her fingers. She smiled and blushed. "I.... I love you.." "I love you more~" "I love you more than you love me!" "I love you more than you say that I love you and how much you love me combined!" "I love you more than the weight of the world!" "I love you more than the entire universe measured!!" "You can't measure universes!" "Exactly. That's why I said it. You can't measure my love for you~!" She giggled. "Clever... I love you though.." I kissed her forehead. "I love you too~" gazing deeply into her eyes, I kissed her nose, smiling widely, she giggled and kissed my nose as well. Chuckling, I felt a pang of sadness shoot through my brain... the feeling of happy warmness melting inside me, and being replaced by coldness...
You liar...
You don't love her...
She doesn't love you...
Your forcing it on her...
She doesn't want this...
Your a disgrace...
A disappointment...
Your disgusting...
Your ugly...
She lies to keep you from crying!!!
She lies to you...
None of it is true...
The world would be better off if your dead...
You should be embarrassed about yourself...
No one loves you...
Kill yourself...
Go slit your wrists...
Hang yourself...
Take an overdose...
Jump off a building..
Drown yourself...
She doesn't love you.
She.
DOESN'T.
LOVE.
YOU.
SHE NEVER WILL!!!

Pain stabbing through my heart, and breaking it in two, I looked at the nearest reflective surface and seen a picture frame, reflecting the faces of my parents, their evil grins widening as I gazed in horror. I shot up and punched the picture. Black tears bursting through my eyes like a waterfall... I stared at the glass that stuck in my knuckles, my bloody hands shaking in my blurry vision. "N-No... its not true... she loves me.. I know she does...." then I broke in two. "Its true... n-no one loves me... no one ever will... I-I'm a... a monster.... I--" I was cut off by a warm embrace wrapping itself around me. Her hands entwining with mine, as I stared at the glass. She turned my left hand over in her palm. "I love you... and don't you second doubt it...~" she said softly as she carefully plucked the glass from my hands. My black tears rolling down my cheeks and blurring my vision. I laid back in her embrace and let it all out. I let the flood push through... I sniffled softly. Her fingers dropping the pieces onto the table top. She than reached into the drawer and pulled out some wrapping bandage, and some medical tape, she wrapped my hands, then placed little places of tape to hold it in place. She began on the other hand and once she finished, she kissed where I was hurt and turned me to her, I looked down at the bed. She placed her hand under my chin, lifting my face up to hers, she smiled warmly, and place both her hands on my cheeks, wiping my tears away with her thumbs. I smiled and fell into her embrace. Clingning to her, I cried into her shirt. "Tell me what's bothering you.. that's what I'm here for..." she stroked my hair gently. I barely choked out the words. "S-Sak-ki....i... y-you love..e... me...-e.... ri-right?" She giggled. "Of course I do... why wouldn't I? I'll tell you everyday if it will help..~" I nodded. "W-well...l...goo-d...d...because...e.. you'll...l.... n...need a lot..t... of that...t..for what..t... I'm about..t.. to..o... tell you...u..." she titled her head. "M.S.?" "I want..t.. to..o.. kill..l... myself..f.. saki..i... I... I can't handle it...t... anymore..e.." I choked as I cried into her shirt. She hugged me tightly. "M.S... no... don't say that... you can fight it... I know you can... and I will stand right by you as you do..." "s-saki..." "M.S.?" ".... jus...st... let..t me..." "no... I won't let you...." "why not?... t...the world..d... would be better..r.. off without me..e...." "no it wouldn't... I'd be the worst place to live if you left!!" "No one..e.. would..d.. care...e.. I'm just..t... a worth less.... ugly... disappointment...t... to everyone..e.." I closed my eyes. "M.S.!! A lot of people would care! Especially me! Don't leave me! You are not worthless, you are not a disappointment, you are most definitely not ugly, your the most beautiful person I have ever laid eyes on, your parents just couldn't see that, they seen you were beautiful and they wanted to break you... and now look what they've done...I wish they were still alive so I could give them a piece of my mind and just how I feel about them through physical ability..." She said as she cradled me in her arms. "Your beautiful... your... not a disappointment.. your not ugly... your not worthless.. you... have... a great purpose here... you... you..." crystal tears rolled down her cheeks. "M.S...W-why..." maybe... I... shouldn't share these feelings with her... I don't want her to be depressed with me... "S...Sa...Sakura... y......your right....t..." I sniffled. I looked up at her as she looked down. Her face drenched with tears, both of us.. are.... broken.... why do... why do people have to break good things.... why do they even want to... "s...saki..." I said softly as I wiped my tears away and raised up, embracing her in my arms, I whispered; "w...were... broken.....n.... an...and that's....s... fine..e.. we...e...." I calmed down a little. "We... the people that hurt us.... we'll make sure... together...r.. that..t... their really....f..fucking sorry... and if their not..t..." She hugged me tighter. "T-they don't..t.. deserve..e... forgiveness...." I said darkly as I kissed her tears away. "I'm sorry.... I... I didn't mean to upset you...." she blushed lightly and smiled. "M.S.... you didn't upset me... it was... people... the human race itself.... why... why would..d.. they...y.. do that to their own..n... kids?" She cried softly. I smiled. "I don't know... but.... we're broken and beautiful... and... that's okay... because... we're meant for each other... I know this might not make any sense... just like any of the other things I've said to you, but... since we're broken.. like glass... we fit each others broken shards.... and... that's just... what we need...." she smiled... "that makes no sense... I'm not good with talking like this..." she giggled and kissed my cheek. "I..I love you...." "I love you too...."