Vipers Posion: Toxic Romance; Book 2

Chapter 15: Your Love...

M.S.'s POV
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I sat at her hospital bed, grasping her hand, I held the little black box in my hand... what if I can't marry her... the doctors said she passed out from stress, hyperventilating, and for some other unknown reason... was it because of me? Did I stress her out too much? Did she get stressed because I didn't follow her orders of bringing her friends? Did she get stressed because she couldn't calm Aleah down because I scared her? Did I scare Sakura? All these questions rushed through my head. I blinked away tears. What have I done? I have probably ruined her life... I probably brought more stress in... I probably make her want to kill herself... God don't let her ever try to... I cried softly. She's to wonderful and perfect to be lost because of a sorry excuse for a girlfriend... if I loved her... I wouldn't have stressed her out this much... I shouldn't have even walked into her house that night... I should have went to the other house and killed the man there... I shouldn't have even looked into her eyes... I shouldn't have even flirted with her... I should have.... done.... nothing.... I blinked the tears out of my eyes as the black drops stained the white bed sheets and blankets, I sighed and bit my lip. She laid there, unconscious, beautiful... sleeping... glorious... she's too perfect to be with a demon like me...she needs an angel just like her.... I'm not Angel... I'm Satan herself... trying to become what she needs... but I failed..I cried a little harder as I gripped the box. She doesn't want to marry me... she would say no anyways... she did before... and I completely understand.. who'd wanna marry a demon? Who'd wanna marry an insane person? Who'd wanna marry me? All I'm good for Is burning down houses... painting pictures with blood.... and.... being a rapist.... I looked at my arms and the scars they bared. I promised I would never do it again... but.... I... need to punish myself... but... it'll stress her out more... I... I let go of her and the box and gripped the sides of my head. Why am I so messed up?! She opened her eyes as I quickly hid the box, she raised up and smiled, I gripped her hand. "Sakura Yuki!!! You scared the hell outta me!!! What happened?! I thought you were...." she smiled softly and squeezed my hand. "M.S..." She whispered. "I love you so much...." that's all I needed to hear... "Saki..." I hugged her as I cried. "I love you too!!" She smiled and hugged back. "Wh...what happened to make you pass out?" "Nothing... it's fine really... nothing... I just... pass out sometimes...it's fine..." she mumbled. "No it's not fine!! The doctors said you passed out from stress!! What stressed you out so bad? Please tell me!! I need to know so I can prevent it from stressing you out anymore! I want you to stay alive and happy! Your my beautiful Angel and I never want you to leave me! I fucking need you Sakura! I'm nothing without you!! I'm just another depressed lazy assed whimp!! I need you!!!" She smiled widely and hugged me tighter. "Oh love... I will never leave you... and nothing stressed me out.. I just got dizzy... that's all..." "Saki please just tell me!!" I cried loudly. She looked at me and stroked my hair. "You stressed me out..." I blinked. I knew it... I'm a bad, terrible, horrible, unworthy, stupid, gruesome person for her!!! "I got stressed out because I felt that you were going through so much that.... I thought you needed comfort... but... I didn't want to speak to you because I thought I might say the wrong things.... like right now.... I don't even know what I'm saying... I guess what I'm trying to say is... I thought that since you were diagnosed with so many mental illnesses... I thought I could comfort you and try to talk to you about it... but I was afraid to say something so I started crying... because... you had so many thing going on in your past life... I... I couldn't handle you in pain... I was so worked up on making you feel better.... I actually seen what you went through...the salt... the poison... the razor blades... the needles the syringes... everything... I even felt it... I felt the pain you went through and I couldn't bare it... I couldn't take it... I love you so Much... I... I can't.. I don't know..." I stared at her and blinked. "I know... I can't speak right now... you probably didn't even--" I grabbed her tightly in my arms and cried into her hair. "Saki...... I can't believe you had to feel that... I can't believe you actually got to it... you truly love me... I need to feel what you felt to show you I truly love you.." She hugged me tightly back. "You don't need to feel what I felt to show me you love me... I already know you would do anything for me.... I've seen you prove...." she whispered. I smiled softly. "I love you..." "I love you more..."... I smiled again. Gripping her hand I gripped the box behind my back. Biting my lip, I smiled nervously. Just wait a little longer until we go to the beach.... then I'll propose when the sun is going down, and a cool breeze is blowing from the sea... then I'll kneel down in front of her, grab her hand, and look into her eyes, then whisper the words. Sakura, you've made me to most happiest girl in the world... and it would make me happier if you would be with me my entire life by... marrying me, so... Sakura Yuki? Will you marry me? Then she'll marry me, well go on a honey moon, and Fuck all night. I drooled. I want that to be my life. Fuck. Sleep. Eat. Cuddle. Fuck. Repeat. Ahhh...