Text Messages {Shawn Mendes}

Grief.

Shawn.

I felt so awful for everything I said to Amanda.  I've been sitting alone for the past few weeks.  She left back home probably heartbroken. 

Her last words kept repeating in my head.  I tried to process everything but I couldn't.  I needed her in my life and I know that.

I just couldn't help but feel broken after everything that happened.  My eyes were probably bloodshot from all the crying.  I hadn't even been able to preform at all since what happened.

I was cut off by the door opening.  The girls knew that I wasn't okay, so I don't know why they would walk in here like everything was magically okay.

"Shawn?" I heard Lauren's voice peak out as she slowly walked into the room.

I regretted kissing her so much.  I could already picture Amanda's face when I did that.  When I kissed her my heart tore apart.  I betrayed Amanda and I know that.

"Go away Lauren," I hugged but she shook her head and laid down in the bed next to me.

"Everyone's worried about you, you know that right?" She asked and I turned my head to her.

"Let them worry, I would rather have that then suffer through acting like everything is alright," I said and she smiled.

"Come on Shawn, it's not that bad.  There are other girls out there, maybe she just wasn't the one," she said and I shook my head.

"Like who Lauren you?  And that's absolutely ludicrous because the only girl who I truly have feelings for is Amanda.  Only her and you should know that," I said and she nodded.

"So you really do like her?" She asked and I shook my head.

"I don't like her Lauren.  I love her," I mumbled and she smiled.

"Well as much as I'm going to regret saying this," she paused and sat up while reaching over to grab my phone off the nightstand, "text her."

"She won't speak to me Lauren," I said and she shook her head.

"Just don't give up hope.  Look for the light in this dark place you're in, because trust me,  she loves you too much to let you go, and she'll listen to you.  Just try," she said and placed my phone in my hands.

"If you really love her, don't be scared and do this, go to her," she said and I nodded.

"Thank you Lauren, you really are a good friend," I said and sat up to give her a hug.

"That's what I'm here for," she said and I could sense some hurt in her voice.

"Hey, I'll still be here for you, just as friends okay?" I said and she nodded.

"Yeah.  I know, just call her," she said and got up then left.

I pulled out my phone and remembered that text was what first started us. I smiled to myself and thought about what to say.  Here goes nothing.

Amanda?

A/N:

Sorry for such a short chapter, but there's only two chapters left in this book. In my opinion the ending is pretty crappy but I'll let you guys get to that soon! I'll update in the next couple of days I'm just trying to focus on the new book I'm working on for you guys.

I have a lot of chapters for the new one which will be out as soon as this one is done, so yeah stick around!

Until next time my lovelies!

Xoxo,
Isabelle