Choosing

0 -Prologue

"Walking alone is not difficult but when we have walked a mile worth a thousand years with someone then coming back alone is what is difficult.
                 -Faraaz Kazi 

All I felt was pain and anger. The pain of my mother leaving me and anger at the people taking her away but also anger at myself for just standing there doing nothing. All I could do was ball up my fist and yell at her not to go but that didn't stop her from leaving. So she left... and it was all my fault.

Hi, my name is Nikola Wolfe, I'm a werewolf I actually am a pure born werewolf and my father is the alpha, which means he's the leader of our pack and the strongest. Having had originated from such a strong and pure background makes me extremely strong, I'm pretty sure I'm even stronger than my father almost positive actually. I already know that I'm way stronger than his beta which is the second strongest in the pack and second to the alpha.

I am the future alpha so that means we will have a stronger pack once my father steps down but it doesn't really matter because we're the strongest pack there is. No matter what.

It's been about 5 years, since the incident. 5 years, since my father genuinely smiled. 5 years since he lost his mate. 5 years, since I lost my mother. And not a day goes by where I don't think about her. But, if I miss her this much I can't even begin to imagine how father must feel.

I've only heard from others about the mate bond but one thing I know is that if your mate dies your purpose for living no longer exist and it sends you into a deep depression and usually causes you to die unless you have a child, that is. You have to live with a constant emptiness but your child then becomes your purpose for going on with your life.

For an Alpha, not only do they have to live for their child after their mate dies but even if they don't have a child, they must live for there pack. Because it is their responsibility to live and protect the pack.

The mate bond is pretty intense but it's even worse for an alpha because we're even stronger than the average wolf. So, all of our senses, emotions, speed and strengths are more heightened than the average werewolf and so is our bond with people especially with our mate.

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My father use to tell me that I was going to be even more beautiful when I grow up, and I guess from what people tell me he was right. I don't see it though, I mean I know I'm attractive but I don't like being called beautiful. I don't feel worthy of that title.

I'm 6'0, I have deep blue eyes, short white hair cut like a guy, I usually gel it to my liking but sometimes I'm lazy and just go with the messy look. I have a very fit body, and by fit I mean I have abs. Not very many women have a six pack nowadays and I mean I'm ripped. Not the ugly abs. I'm toned to my perfection it goes perfectly with my body size and my physical appearance. As an Alpha I have to keep in shape but also in order to reach my goal.

My favorite characteristic about myself are my eyes. I get them from my mother the only thing that's different is that if you look closely you can see black and white flakes in them some people think it's cool but I wish they were the same as moms.

Ever since the incident I asked my father to train me to become stronger and so he did.

Trust me, it has been pure hell, I'm getting use to it. Plus, it's worth it my dad trains me harder than anything because he wants me to be the strongest alpha that ever lived and I don't plan on letting him down. But, that's not the only reason he trains me so hard. The other reason I'm not allowed to tell anyone and honestly, I don't want to. It brings back all of the memories, the pain. I NEVER want to feel that again.

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