Choosing

3 - Self-Control

As I approach the locker assigned to me I began to smell a familiar sent and I already knew what was going to happen.

As I'm about to put in my locker combination a certain someone jumps on my back and begins trailing butterfly kisses down my neck. Of course I know who it is but I love messing with her. My wolf let out a low growl and I can feel her smile against my neck, crap she heard it " Oi, would you quit that ", I said trying to play off that she was getting to me, she hopped off my back and came up to me stood on her tip toes and kissed my nose.

This is my new girlfriend Gwen, she is truly beautiful she's considered the most beautiful girl in the school and a personality to match her beauty she's such an amazing person. She's about 5'8 long wavy blonde hair, hazel eyes and fair skin.

We went on a lot of dates before I made us official cause I didn't want to break her heart. I didn't even ask her out she approached me, and I thought she was the cutest thing seeing how nervous she was.

I accepted her offer, but I said we would only be going on a friendly date. After going on a few ' friendly dates ' with her I decided that I wanted the real thing. I was planning to ask her out but I was a tad too late and she asked me first for us to go on a real date. I enjoyed my time with her a lot but because of my fear of asking her out then breaking her heart. I didn't ask her to be mine. Then on one our dates she started to become nervous out of nowhere she was looking down rubbing her hands together so I gently grabbed her hand, lifted her head up with my finger and asked her what the problem was. Then she looked back down and asked me to be her girlfriend but I politely declined then she gently removed her hand from mine and when she looked up I could see tears brimming from her eyes. At that moment I hated myself I pulled away from the hug a little and put my forehead against hers and told her sorry because well, I didn't know what else to say.

Long story sort, she became my girlfriend.

" How come I can never scare you, it's not fair " she pouted, cutely, if I might add. " Because I'm an alpha. I'm trained to always be physically on guard", and emotionally, because of her. " Are you ok honey? ", she asked concerned snapping me out of my thoughts. " What do you mean of course I'm well ", I say trying to convince her, but she still looked concerned " Then why are you clenching your fists?". I looked down at my hands and I was clenching them, I didn't even notice then I felt her grab my hand and I instantly relaxed it. I turn my head not wanting to her to see my emotions.

"Please let me see your face", she said and gently turned my face to see it and I complied to her wishes and turned my head. She gasped then sighed she must have seen the color of my eyes then she briefly closed her eyes and let out a long breath. "Honey can you please look me in the eyes?", I reluctantly lead my dark angry eyes to her soft caring hazel eyes. She touched our foreheads together and closed her eyes " Close your eyes okay?", I followed her instructions and I felt her hands softly caress my cheek "Focus on my touch, and only my touch " she said in a very calming voice. I focused on her touch and it felt as if we were the only people in the world but I knew we weren't because I never stopped smelling that addicting sent that I've been smelling since I got here. I was so relaxed. I had Gwen calming me down while the the sent relaxing my tense muscles like the perfect massage. I slowly opened my eyes to find Gwen's eyes slightly opened looking at me she smiled a bit seeing that my eyes were back to their original color, and my emotions were back to a more stable state.

"Do you wanna talk about it? If you want to I'm here. If not I can wait for you to be ready.", She said genuinely concerned as usual.