Choosing

1 - It'll Get Better... Not

It's a beautiful day today, I think to myself as I look outside, the sun shining bright on my face. I wonder what I'll do today it feels early, I question myself as I look at my alarm clock to see the time whoa it is early, I think as I read 6:01am holy crap body why the heck did you wake up? Whatever, it must be for a good reason.

Anyways, I get ready to encounter the world so I put clothes on and choose a burgundy V-neck tee, black ripped skinny jeans, with my black leather converse.

I only have guy clothes, so I'm never uncomfortable in my clothes. I head out of my room to get some breakfast. That's when I smell it, 'old spice' clone, great, just great, he's here. Why is he here, and who let him in? I'm not in the mood for this, today was supposed to be a good day.
Ugh.

I reluctantly make my way into the kitchen to see my best mate, Jason, sitting on one of the counter chairs swirling around like an idiot.

" Oi Jay! I know we're 'bestfriends' and all but what the heck are you doing in my house? Also how did you get in my house?". "Oh, hey buddy, I was wondering when you'd come out. To answer your question I came here to ask you for a ride to school. By the way, Papa Alpha gave me the key yesterday, while you were asleep.", he spoke in a nonchalant tone. What the heck is he talking about? School is tomorrow, not today.

"Oi! Idiot what the heck are you talking about, school?", I asked. "Well, it's that thing that you go to, to learn and socialize, it's a building about 15 minutes from here. Ringing any bells?", he spoke in a slow annoying voice as if he was speaking with a young child who couldn't comprehend big kid words. " Well no dip Sherlock, you smart-alec you know what I mean. Now, what day is it?", I told him annoyed. "Why, don't you just look on your phone, Alpha?", he said with a smirk on his face.

It's funny how you can talk to someone for less than 2 minutes and already want to kill them. Woos-ah, woos-ah. He's doing this intentionally to get a rise out of me. I can't let him win.
"Because I asked you. Ya, little prick, that's why", he showed me his phone I looked at it, and it really was the first day of school.

Alright, and it's 7:02am crap we need to get to school. So that means I slept for two days straight. Oh, my goddess what's going on with my body, it's been acting so weird lately. "Mate, here's the key, get in the truck. I'll be out in a jiffy".
I went upstairs to re-brush my teeth, re-wash my face, put a bit of gel in my hair to keep it in the messy look all day cause I didn't have enough time (didn't feel like) putting a lot of work into doing my hair. I then got my school supplies and put them in my Dragon Ball Z backpack, rush downstairs, lock up, and head out to the truck.

As I got in the truck, I tried to start it but I realized I didn't have the keys so I looked towards my side and caught a glimpse of Jason jingling the keys like a little bell. This guy.

"You looking for something?", he asked with a cocky tone. I snatched the key out of his hand and put it in the ignition, started the car and began to drive to school. I turned the radio on to classic rock. Oh, how I love the classics.

"So how was that date with that chick you've been with? Did you make it official?", he asked with genuine interest." Well, to but quite frank, I made the date perfect and enjoyable for her, and I was just happy being with her.

"Oh, and also, I did, we are officially official now, as of Friday last week", I said while flashing my canines at him.

"Whoa, you're serious? Ya'll are really a thing now? OMG, i'm so happy for you!" he yelled while hugging me, almost getting us into a car crash. "I don't know why you're so excited it's just another relationship just like the others." I lied. There was something different about her, that infatuated me, that made me think about her even when she wasn't with me, that made me think we would last, it almost made me scared that I might actually like her and begin to develop deeper feelings for her... yeah right. I've been doing this for so long there is no way I could just out of nowhere find 'the one'.
I have complete control of my emotions of love now all thanks to her.

"What's wrong with you?", he said looking at me weirdly. " What's that supposed to mean?", I asked pretending to be offended."You just don't look like you're in love", he said sadly "When do I ever?". "I can name a time when you did", he said lowly my wolf growled at him 'How dare he bring her up' growled my wolf inside my head. I need to calm down.

Lately I haven't been able to control my wolf very well. I don't know what's wrong with me.
"I'm sorry Nikola, I shouldn't have said that, it's just that we miss the old you back before you became this cold person who just breaks chicks hearts", that made me sad I don't mean to break girls hearts.

I just wanna feel something again but none of those girls gave me that spark that I long for. They may have claimed to love me and I of course cared for them as much as they needed, but, I can't force myself to love someone. I wish I could, but that's just not how love works.

We sat there in silence. He had his head down and I was driving, until he decided to break it.

"You know that I love you, right, and that I would never intentionally hurt you, right? I just said that because. Well. What happens if you find your mate and you're dating some other chick? I know you wouldn't cheat on her so what would you do? Also what if your mate doesn't approve of your little 'heartbreaking spree' and rejects you? Or what happens if you actually fall for some girl and then you find your mate what are you gonna do, huh?", he asked me with a serious face.

"What i'm trying to say is. I know I tell you this a lot but", aww man here comes the lecture, "if you don't wanna be in a relationship then-", " 'Don't be in one' I know OK, you're starting to sound like a broken record", I said acting like I didn't care, but he was actually kinda making me think.

Jason isn't a regular werewolf, he has the gift of foresight which means he can see/predict the future. In a way, that is.

The thing is there are multiple types of futures that can happen for people. So, I guess you could say it's a 'headhurt'.

Jason said it's harder to indicate indecisive people's future because they are so fickle and their brian comes up with so many possibilities of futures for them and it takes forever to them to come to a conclusion about what they choose to do. So, it takes him forever to find out what's going to happen next. He said that's the worst part.

He usually doesn't tell people there future unless what will happen puts someone in danger.

Although, sometimes he'll drop little hints to me about my future. Usually, I don't understand until after it's happened, which isn't very helpful but he laughs when he sees me have the 'Ahh' moment which makes me feel stupid.

"Are you going to the bonfire tonight? Please say yes". "No", I said in a monotone voice. I never go to bonfires anymore and he knows that, it just reminds of me how alone I am.

A bonfire happens on the first day of every full moon because our powers grow a lot, which means our strength and our senses grow like around twice as much for as long as the full moon is out. The reason why is because we get most of our powers from the moon because we were created by the moon goddess. So if the moon were to ever be destroyed. Well, it would suck for us werewolves.

Since we get this big power up we usually celebrate it with our mate or friends at the bonfire but, if you have met your mate your love/lust is also heightened. Which means, they go into a 'mini heat'. That means that they are extremely aroused as long as the full moon is out and if you don't act on it, it will become extremely painful.
So... sucks for them.

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