The Messages

Chapter 15

Author's Note- 

Sorry, I can't update much. I am taking Driver's Ed and I have to have 50 hours of driving in by December 1st and 10 of them have to be night driving. I only have 15 hours of day driving and 0 hours of night driving. As well as my depression is getting worse and it being summer, I can't go talk to my counselor. My girlfriend tries to help but she can't always be there for me. I also can't afford therapy because- even though I am old enough to get it by myself without parental consent- I don't have any money. I try to update as much as possible. 

I try to put my emotions into my writing so if it gets depressing, I will put a warning at the begining of the chapter. I'm sorry. 

Bin's POV

We were on our way to dinner. I don't know where we are going but Dongmin made me dress up. I lay my head back onto the headrest and smiled to myself. Dongmin held my hand as he drove. His hands seemed clammy. I don't know why but I was happy that I could be with him at any time that I wanted. I love him more than anything. I squeezed his hand and smiled at him. He smiled back. 

When he pulls into the parking lot, we are at a hotel.... A fancy one.... 

I looked at him, confused. He smiles at me. He rubs the back of my head. He gets out and I do the same. He takes my hand gently in his and leads me into the lobby. He goes up to the desk and checks in. I am still confused. He hands me one key and puts the other in his pocket. 

We go to the restaurant on the 15th floor and he gives his name. Apparently, he had gotten a reservation 3 days ago. We are sat at our table and he takes my hand. 

"Bennie," Dongmin said.

"Hmm?"

"Are you okay?"

"Yeah, why?"

"Because you look distracted."

"I'm just confused on why you took me somewhere so fancy."

"Because you are worth it. You deserve it."

"For what?"

"Being able to put up with Jin when I wasn't able to protect you. I'm sorry. I promise that I will protect you and I will never let you get hurt ever again. I'm sorry that I let you get hurt in the first place. It is all my fault."

"It isn't though. You shouldn't blame yourself for something that you can't help."

He takes my hand and kisses it softly, smiling. 

Dongmin's POV

I love the man in front of me. I love him more than I deserve. I don't deserve him. I want to make him mine before anyone else gets him. 

It isn't that I don't trust him... I don't trust myself. I don't trust that I will be able to satisfy him or give him what he needs later on in life. I don't trust that I will be able to be enough for him later on in the future. 

"Dongmin," Bin said cautiously. 

"Hmmm?"

"What do you want to eat?" he said looking at me concerned. The waitress was standing beside him looking at me.

"Oh, umm I'll have the steak."

She smiled at me and winked. I glared at her in response. 

"Why did you just glare at her?"Bin said.

"Because she winked at me and was flirting with me. I hate it when people do that when I am with you..."

I blush hard and Bin takes my hand and smiles at me gently. 

"I love you and trust you. I know that you wouldn't cheat on me. I know you love me more than anything. You have proved it over and over again. You know I think actions speak louder than words."

We start talking about nothing and soon the food comes and we eat in a comfortable silence. When I finish eating, I excuse myself for a bit.

Bin's POV

I wait at the table for a while and I start to get more and more worried about Dongmin. I am about to get up and leave when I get a text. I look at it hopefully.

"Come to our room, babe."

I am confused but I go anyways. When I get there, I get nervous. I don't know why. I hear a soft music. I hesitantly enter and find roses on the floor. I follow the trail and see Dongmin on one knee with a ring box open and looking determined.