100 Days to Life

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Day 5

I woke up feeling uneasy. Parang may mali iniisip ko kung may nagawa ba kong mali kahapon pero wala naman I had a chat with Althea tapos went home to clean the dorm then Got a call from Jess saying hindi pa rin siya makakauwi. She's been staying at the hospital a lot lately kaya naisipan ko na bisitahin si Rico ngayon dahil walang binabanggit si Jess about sakanya.

I've Been thinking about my missions too. So far I have Rico, Mark and Althea. What if I fail? Anong mangyayari sakin? And what about my past life?

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"You know pwede ka naman magback out and I will gladly escort you back to Heaven Des"

"Faith. Hiningi ko to, I wanted to have a chance ngayong nasakin na susukuan ko ba agad? I'm just.. you know scared of what might happen"

"Des, Fear destroys your ability to trust. You have it in you. I know you ever since you are born. Why did you think God gave you a mission? When he could give me or other angels that?"

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"Hey Rico. Kumusta ka na?" I said as I enter the room. Jess is sleeping in the corner his mom is peeling fruits and He's looking pale and extremely tired. Naawa ako sa situation niya pero ayokong ipakita sakanya yun.

"Eto. Walang improvement" he said smiling.

"Ikaw talagang bata ka! Kumain ka kasi para hindi ka latang lata jan" with that inabot ng mom niya yung apple na binabalatan nito

"Ikaw muna bahala sakanya ha? Tatawagan ko lang dad niya" ngumiti ito sa akin

"Ok po tita" then she left the room

"Knockout si Jess a?" Sabay kaming tumawa habang tinitignan ang natutulog na jess

"Halos kakatulog lang niyan. Kakarating lang din kasi ni Mama. Magdamag gising yan kasi I was vomiting last night" gusto kong itanong kung ano sabi ng mga doctor pero I know that is the last thing he wanted to talk about

"Ang caring ng bestfriend ko na? Maganda tapos Wife material pa" he gave me a faint smile

"Maganda nga, maalaga, kaso she wouldn't let me marry her kaya di ko ramdam ang wife material" tumawa ito. I'm confused. Would that mean tinanong na Rico si Jess in the past? Sa past yung nakita ko?

I held his hand. Trying to see kung may makukuha akong sagot.

"Thank you Jessica, you are my miracle, Thank you for not giving up on me  let me return the favor by taking care of you for the rest of my life" nakaluhod si Rico while giving her a ring. It was perfect nasa garden sila full of lights and flowers. But I saw the hesitation in Jessica's eyes. Umiyak lang siya at tumakbo

"What happened?" Punong puno ng katanungan I asked him

"I thought I could ask you the same question. What made her ran away?"

"Di ko alam Rico. She never told me na nagpropose ka"

"You know just because I'm breathing doesn't mean I'm alive. I died the day Jess rejected me. Nung araw na yun galing ako sa hospital the doctor said may cancer ako. Naisip ko if I'm going to die I want to be the happiest man. Kaya ko siya tinanong and when she ran away she also took the life out of me. Ang sakit sobra. I decided to tell her I have cancer after a week I asked her again she said no. Ayoko na mabuhay Des. Ayoko na magpagamot ano pang sense kung gagaling ako hindi na rin naman ako sasaya" almost crying he said to me. Halos pabulong.

"Rico, naiintindihan ko yung sakit na nararamdaman mo. But kahit hindi mo nakuha yung sagot na hinihintay mo She's here. Yun ang mas mahalaga may reason kung bakit siya umayaw. At hindi yun dahil hindi ka niya mahal. Breathe with life again Rico. Maraming nagmamahal sayo if you think hindi ka mahal ni Jess screw that you have your family waiting for you to come home" he looked at me with hope.

"Uy Des. Andito ka pala" Jess said yawning.

"Oo kanina pa! Di mo man lang napansin tulo laway ka kasi jan" tumawa kami ni Rico it felt good seeing him laugh like that.

Binato ako ng unan ni jess.

"Hoy! Umalis ka na nga dito! Panggulo ka nagpapahinga si Rico o!" Abnormal tong babaeng to pero siguro gusto lang niya masolo si Rico. Nakita ko siyang gising at nakikinig kanina habang nagkwekwentuhan kami ni Rico. Maybe she finally want to tell him the reason why she had to do that.

"Osige. Alis na ko. Rico pagaling ka ha! Balik nalang ako another day. And Jess go girl!"

"Go girl ka jan? Layas na!" Kinindatan ko lang siya para alam niya na gets ko kung bakit niya ako pinapaalis.