Bad Decisions (Punk Harry Styles)

Chapter 55

Chapter 55

Ellie's POV

After the little run in with Chloe at the cafe I just want to get back to the apartment. Say my good byes to Holly and head back.

Once I get back I slip off my shoes and curl up on the sofa. Its 4:30 a and Harry isn't home he finished the same time as me but we parted ways when I went to the coffee shop with Holly. I feel myself drift off into a pleasant nap on the sofa.

I wake by myself at 7pm I check the apartment to see if Harry is back and just didn't want to disturb me, but the place is empty. I check my phone for any messages and nothing. I try not to get too worried and that maybe he is out with his friends from the gym or with Liam, I don't want to come across as the crazy girlfriend needing to know where he is 24/7.

I make myself a sandwich before I decide to do some uni work. I sit on the sofa with a bottle of water, glasses on, jumper, leggings and many business plans spread out on the coffee table and begin to assess them.

I work solid 3 hours and still no sign of Harry, I've done all my work I'm relived that's out of the way. I give up hope that I will be awake when Harry decides to come back. I begin packing all my work away and tidying up my mess when I hear a girlish giggle from the apartment door. I hear the key turn in the lock and rustling around. I walk to the hall way and see Harry drunk being helped into the apartment by Chloe.

I switch the hallway lights in and walk away. I have energy to even argue with Harry or Chloe. I continue tidying up my stuff when I hear them talking.

"You never told me she lived with you" Chloe whispers to Harry.

All I hear off Harry is groans, obviously too drunk to even form sentences.

Chloe hobbles with Harry into the living room.

"Obviously no need for me to pass on your message, huh?" I comment as finish organising my papers.

"Umm no, I didn't know you lived together. Where shall I put him?" I point to the sofa.

"Because living makes all the difference. You can put him on the sofa or I can help you two into bed if you like?" the bitchy tone to my voice is ver apparent.

"I... um better go." She drops Harry to the sofa and scurries out the apartment. I follow behind her and lock the door as she leaves. My forehead drops to the wood of the door and tears fill my eyes. Me and Harry were fine before tonight there is nothing more I can offer him, he obviously isn't happy with just me. No one ever is, James wasn't.

All of a sudden anger boils within me. I haven't done anything wrong, I'm not the one who comes in late at night with another women.I won't be treated like an idiot again, James did it to me once and will not be taken for a fool again. I won't argue with Harry now because he too drunk to speak.

I wipe my tears and walk past the living room, I see Harry passed put on the sofa. I grab a bucket from the kitchen and place on the floor by the sofa and gaze at Harry.

"Fucking prick"

I wake in the morning with a heavy arm draped over my body. I turn my head and see Harry. He must of joined me in the night, he better be fucking kidding me. I rip his arm from my body and jump out of bed. My movements wake Harry.

"Why you out of bed it's Saturday, get back in" he murmurs.

I scowl at him from the foot of the bed.

"Fuck off Harry" I seethe. His eyes widen and sits up in bed his back against the head board.

"If this about me coming back late last night I'm sorry I should of text from someone else's phone mine died, I'm sorry." I look at the floor and smile, I feel like I'm going crazy. I look back up at him and my expressions remain neutral.

"I was told to pass message onto you yesterday but I think you had a chance to receive it before I could deliver."

"What are you talking about?"

"Don't play fucking dumb with me Harry! Chloe she told me to tell she was in the city of a couple of weeks and for you to ring her. Then when I sit at home waiting up for my stupid boyfriend to come home. At 11:30 he arrives home drunk struggling to walk but with the help of Chloe he gets home safe and sound." The anger and sarcasm in my voice is easy to recognise. I speak and watch his face pale.

"I'm sorry" he speaks.

"So am I because I'm done Harry."

"What do you mean your done?" he jumps out of bed and stands in front of me.

"I mean it's over, Harry you know what James did to me. And you've done exactly the same, you brought a girl home after doing gods knows what with her. For fuck sake Harry am I that easily forgotten, you forgot that I live with you. You couldn't even hide it from me." I feel tears roll down my cheeks, will I always be the girl who gets cheated on and will never be enough for anyone.

I can't let these thoughts consume me.

I walk from Harry to the wardrobe and begin taking my stuff out. I can't stay with someone who doesn't love me.

"I don't know what you think happened Ellie but I didn't sleep with her."

"Did you kiss her?" I turn from the wardrobe to face him.

"I don't know, I can't remember."

"So you can remember not having sex with her but can't remember if you kissed her. Oh fuck off and grow some balls of course you kissed her. Who wouldn't she's beautiful, blonde, perfect figure. What's not to like?"

"I did, I'm so sorry El it wasn't meant to happen. I'm so sorry please don't leave me." He drops to his knees in front of me.

"We were doing so well, I thought that was it, just us, together." I drop the jeans i held in my hand to the floor and just cry. I can't hold it in a any longer, I'm so mad but I'm even more hurt. I bury my face in my hands and just cry. I can't believe he would do this to me after everything. I slide to the bedroom floor, I'm so done.

"Baby please, don't cry I'm sorry. It should if never happened, she just threw herself at me..."

"And you couldn't say no." I look at him seated next to me on the floor. "That one stupid mistake you made just wrecked our entire relationship. But hey on the upside I don't have worry about telling my parents about us, considering it's over." I stand to my feet and begin pulling all my clothes out the wardrobe. I rip the clothes off the coat hangers and throw them into a pile in the floor.

"Please forgive me, please it was just one stupid kiss" he begged.

"Well let's hope it was worth it because its broken everything we had together Harry." I pull my suitcase from under his bed and begun packing my clothes.

"You cant just leave, I love you."

"Obviously I'm not good enough Harry." I pause from packing a minute. "I never thought I was, you know good enough for you. I always thought you could have anyone you wanted, why was he interested in me. Then I lost my virginity to you and I wanted more than just friends with benefits. Then you slept with Amy all be it we weren't together but it still hurt. Then I realised he wanted a girl who had more confidence in herself, a smaller waist but with bigger boobs. Nice long legs with a nice bum. A pretty girl who would give into your every demand. That's not me, I've never been good enough for you." I stopped speaking and continued packing.

"Don't talk about yourself like that, your everything I want and much more. Your too good for me Ellie I know that but I still want you. I never meant to kiss Chloe I was really drunk and barely remember it. I feel terrible asking you this, but please don't leave me. Stay I'm sorry." I zipped up my case and stood. I walked over to Harry and grazed the palm of my hand against his jaw.

"Go find Chloe, she's only in the city for a couple of weeks." I kissed his cheek and took my suitcase and left.